[doggiedo]

I feel miserable and depressed. I feel alone and sad.

I have put my value in the hands of others and without their validation and support I feel like nothing. I feel like my life is worthless and without meeting. I am just going through the steps.

I am going to be spending a week along at my parent's house, house-sitting and dog sitting for them while they are away for the week. I am fearful of being alone. I am not looking forward to it, but I am at the same time.

I feel like I have noone and noone cares. Noone sees the true pain inside. It's just not worth it.

[CgRgSm]

I am truly sorry you are experiencing this misery. I feel the same way. I don't know what else to say.

[Snowy83]

I can relate to how you feel....I would self talk to myself that I'm not worthless by helping people on here, giving them support/comfort, place a seed of positive thinking in their mind when they are in need. And dogs are good companies to human, I always feel lighter and less alone whenever I visit my sister's dog, I hope you will feel the same when you go house-sitting and dog-sitting for your parents.

[doggiedo]

Thanks guys. Hugs to you all too. I just want to feel better. I don't want to wallow in this. I am hoping next week will be a nice break for me but Idk.

hope you get to feeling more hopeful soon.

hugs

[doggiedo]

I called the pdoc and he doesn't have any openings until next Sat. Counselor isn't there until next week and with the holiday, I won't hear from her until Tuesday I bet.

[Snowy83]

Hmmm So you couldn't seek professional help until next week? then there is nothing you could do about it....I'm sorry, hope the dog will cheer you up next week Why don't you start planning what you could do that you would enjoy at your parent house next week, like ordering your fav. dinner to eat, (mine is pizza), and choose a nice movie, something that make you look forward to it.

[doggiedo]

I like gardening and I already have a list of stuff I want to do (flowers to plant and relocate). My dad doesn't get to much gardening anymore, so he lets me have cart blanche over the place, which is nice. My parents, jokingly, got a sign that says Doggiedo's garden (insert real name). They appreciate my help I think.

I also emailed a college friend to see if she wants to meet up for dinner. My godson and my counsin are in the area - maybe I'll email them to see if they are free, too.

I can do day hikes, but noone to go with.

[Snowy83]

That's great!!!! This doesn't sound bad like you said before, busying yourself is a good way to go. Enjoy your week and don't over think things, have a great weekend!!!

[InfiniteSadness]

Yeah I can relate, I hate my life as well.

[doggiedo]

Aw hugs infinites-sadness. I'm sorry you are feeling the same way.

I was able to haves. Pretty productive day. Looking forward to a relaxing week...hopefully. One day at a time I guess.

[Hellion]

I Don't really have anything helpful to say, but I feel pretty much the same and I kind of hate my life, so I know the feeling. All I can say is I know it really sucks and its hard to keep going.