[shortandcute]

I am always depressed but I am starting to feel the same way I did when my 2nd husband died--that kind of "grieving, having to start all over, I don't want to think about it" kind of depression. Not sure why I am feeling this way, it has been 17 years. My med dosage just got raised a week ago, and I think that may have something to do with it. Plus, my friend's husband died of alcoholism a couple of weeks ago--which is what killed my husband. I just have this deep ache in my soul--I don't feel suicidal, I just want to cry and sleep.

[Suki22]

I'm so sorry you're feeling this way! life can be a downer sometimes but mostly it is balanced out with the simple pleasures. I'm guessing the upped dosage is effecting you, making you a little more suseptable. I'm sending you good thoughts for you to get through this tough spot. xoxo

[perseverance11]

Hello shortandcute,

Firstly, I am sorry you are feeling this way.
Since when you 2nd husband died?

If your medication was raised, maybe you feel down because of that.
What makes you the most feeling this way?

[shortandcute]

Originally Posted by perseverance11

Hello shortandcute,

Firstly, I am sorry you are feeling this way.
Since when you 2nd husband died?

If your medication was raised, maybe you feel down because of that.
What makes you the most feeling this way?

I think part of what triggered this is my friend's husband dying--and she is so broken up and it is hard to see her this way.Plus, I feel like a failure and feel very discouraged because I am almost 50 and have done nothing with my life.

[perseverance11]

Originally Posted by shortandcute

I think part of what triggered this is my friend's husband dying--and she is so broken up and it is hard to see her this way.Plus, I feel like a failure and feel very discouraged because I am almost 50 and have done nothing with my life.

Did you have a good relationship with your friend's husband?
You could try to comfort your friend (I guess you did).
You are not a failure, I am sure that you have some good qualities!

Did you ever have a job? Would you like to have one?
What would you like to do of your life?
It is never too late!

[tigerlily84]

(((shortandcute)))

I understand how you feel. My cousin passed away in February due to alcoholism. It's a horrible thing, and I am still heartbroken over it. I can't imagine having to go through a loss like that twice. I don't have any advice but my thoughts are with you.

[shortandcute]

Originally Posted by perseverance11

Did you have a good relationship with your friend's husband?
You could try to comfort your friend (I guess you did).
You are not a failure, I am sure that you have some good qualities!

Did you ever have a job? Would you like to have one?
What would you like to do of your life?
It is never too late!

Well, I was not really close to him--but I hate it when that happens. I've had a couple of jobs here and there but have not been able to hold onto one for very long.

[perseverance11]

Originally Posted by shortandcute

Well, I was not really close to him--but I hate it when that happens. I've had a couple of jobs here and there but have not been able to hold onto one for very long.

Have you a CV?
Maybe you could search for a new job where you could be more stable.

[shortandcute]

Originally Posted by perseverance11

Have you a CV?
Maybe you could search for a new job where you could be more stable.

Well, there aren't a whole lot of jobs like that available. Plus, I haven't worked in over a year and I'm almost 50, so I already have those two strikes against me.
What is a CV?

[perseverance11]

Originally Posted by shortandcute

Well, there aren't a whole lot of jobs like that available. Plus, I haven't worked in over a year and I'm almost 50, so I already have those two strikes against me.
What is a CV?

Maybe you could still try.
A CV is a curriculum vitae.