Stressed Out

From the moment I graduated, I have been working on getting ready for college. Not entirely my plan for I thought taking time off from school and seeking employment might help clear my mind and give me the ability to discover what I wish to do with my life. But with a controlling mother, that didnt go over so well. I applied to MIAD, Milwaukee Art Institute of Design... and overall, it seemed like I might get in though mind you, my drawing skills merely consist of anime style and I rarely even find those good enough. But I liked the school and found it offered promising ideals such as media arts so I kept trying... crossing boundaries I didnt feel comfortable within my drawings. But each time I sent those drawings as my portfolio, the admissions director would say they are good but then ask more of me. Its beginning to get a bit stressful for me to not know if Im getting in and yet Im getting asked again and again to submit more. This and my mother always complaining and on my back doesnt quite help my esteem or motivation. And my recent depression hasnt been helping with my getting this portfolio done. I just feel trapped. I want to tell my mother that I want to take time off from school but she wont allow that.. I want to tell the admissions director that Im having problems and may wish to apply next year but I feel it may be unprofessional and inexcusable to merely say I have been depressed lately. I do not have many friends to turn to for support or guidance and my boyfriend is frequently busy as I stated in previous threads. I just really need help... friendship or otherwise would be appreciated. Im so tired of suffering alone and feeling like Im choking on my own life.

Look my friend -- if the Art school is what you want to do NOW -- then GO for it. This ISN'T your Mother's life -- this is YOUR life, and you need to do what YOU want to do, not your mother!!! You need to tell your mother that she needs to let you do what YOU want to do, not HER. She isn't letting you make your OWN decisions, and it's time that you did!

If the Art school keeps asking for more of your drawings, etc., then they must think that they're good enough. So keep trying -- keep working on them to make them better and better! You CAN do it !! Forget what your mother has been saying -- you ARE capable of this, and this might pan out into a wonderful career! And even if it doesn't, you can still go back to school, right?

So remember -- this is YOUR life. This is for YOU. You have the right to do what YOU want, WHEN you want and HOW you want. Don't let your mother pressure you into doing something you don't want to do!! It's your decision and yours only! So go for it -- okay??? God bless and let us know what happens, will you please?? I REALLY want to know if you make in into the Art school. Hugs, Lee

I go to an art college and understand the stress when people asked for more of your work. It's extremely difficult to do any work when your depressed. PM me any time