Fooling myself

I am depressed I know that, but I acted like everything is ok. It is not. I am not. Why can't I just admit it? I am not fooling anyone but myself. I want to believe I am a strong person, I am not. I am just fooling myself. How do I stop?

I have the same thoughts too. I am always being used by friends and yet i tell them everything and ended up being a topic for gossip. How stupid I am right? I try my best to help them but it is as good as not helping because they treat me as though i am some kind of pest.
Maybe you can consider seeking professional help. There are pros and cons, so consider it carefully as it may affect your future, which has happened to me. some times, I am relieved that i sought help but other times, i regretted it. so choose wisely

Sounds like you want someone to take care of you and recognize your difficulties (or maybe I'm way off). That's normal, it's something we all want.

Gma45,
I think you just did admit that you are depressed. Depression is not a weaknes anymore than arthritis, a bad case of the flu or any other health issue is. For a long time, it was something to be ashamed of and hidden away. We know better now.

Are you depressed because of an event in your life like a loss of a loved one, or are you clinically depressed for no aparent reason. If it is interferring with your life, the sooner you can get treatment the better. I'm sure you have been using coping skills that you have found helpful in the past. Most only help for a while, then our lives change and those skills don't work anymore. The longer you wait to get help, the harder it will be.

Hang in there,
Sam

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