[golf898]

My Depression has lasted the past 13 years. It has been a long struggle for me to get better. After several years of therapy & neurofeedback I have gotten much better. Going though my therapy process; I learned that my own mother was a Narcissist, and that my childhood was very isolated and lonely from an emotional perspective. My parents were never there for me emotionally, and I have struggled with relationships in my life. I am going to group therapy which is really helping with social skills and personal relationships.

I am finally to the point where I do not have to take Cymbalta anymore. It feels wonderful to have finally made it to the other side of feeling normal after 13 years of depression and 4.5 years of therapy and 2 years of neurofeedback. I am feeling extremely upset right now about having all of those years that were lost that their was nothing that I was able to do about. It took me a long time to figure out that I was able to get help for my illness. Now that I am in my late 30's I am thinking about going back to graduate school and hopefully be able to meet someone and get married. I have gone through so much emotional pain in my life thusfar; and I am looking for some validation that things will get better for me. I have done all this self work, and want something good to come out of it. Why is life so unfair?

[TerryL]

Hi golf898-It sounds like it has been a long journey for you but congratulations on making it to the other side! I'm really so happy for you. Good for you for reaching out for help and working hard at your own recovery. You are an inspiration. and although you can't get those 13 years back, maybe your experience with depression has made you a deeper more empathetic person? maybe your pain could even be turned into purpose? and just think how wonderful life can be for you from now on. So don't let the neglect you suffered as an innocent child win one more day. Here's to better times ahead and may life bring you the peace and happiness you deserve. Welcome to PC.

that is great you are getting better.

keep it up..

[golf898]

Hi TerryL,

Thanks for the reply. I would have never thought to reach out in this type of forum before; if it was not for group therapy. I get a different sense of validation from speaking to others about my illness. It is very therapeutic for me. Yes, I agree. Getting though severe depression has made me a much stronger person than I would have been without such a tough life experience. I guess that is a 'silver lining'? Because of this experience I was actually thinking of getting a PsyD; it would be fun to be able to work with others in a clinical setting. I am just very grateful to have made it to this point. It was a long journey getting here. It feels really nice to be able to connect with other human beings. I have just realized how much more similar people are than different.

Originally Posted by TerryL

Hi golf898-It sounds like it has been a long journey for you but congratulations on making it to the other side! I'm really so happy for you. Good for you for reaching out for help and working hard at your own recovery. You are an inspiration. and although you can't get those 13 years back, maybe your experience with depression has made you a deeper more empathetic person? maybe your pain could even be turned into purpose? and just think how wonderful life can be for you from now on. So don't let the neglect you suffered as an innocent child win one more day. Here's to better times ahead and may life bring you the peace and happiness you deserve. Welcome to PC.

[oliamble]

Wow a psyc degree golf898 that would be such a great degree in a topic you can relate and help people like us who suffer from depression. I my self went through almost 14 yrs of suffering from depression myself, finally was able to completely stole my meds and instead went on to try natural herbs such as 5htp and St. John wort and they did help for a while but I began to feel a little bad lately. This does mean a lot to you and I wish you good licks in every endeavor you desire to pursue. God bless you.

[TerryL]

Originally Posted by golf898

Hi TerryL,

Thanks for the reply. I would have never thought to reach out in this type of forum before; if it was not for group therapy. I get a different sense of validation from speaking to others about my illness. It is very therapeutic for me. Yes, I agree. Getting though severe depression has made me a much stronger person than I would have been without such a tough life experience. I guess that is a 'silver lining'? Because of this experience I was actually thinking of getting a PsyD; it would be fun to be able to work with others in a clinical setting. I am just very grateful to have made it to this point. It was a long journey getting here. It feels really nice to be able to connect with other human beings. I have just realized how much more similar people are than different.

I'm so glad you have found PC therapeutic. It really helps to find others who understand what you are going through. That's so hard to find in regular daily life. I myself have learned so much from reading other people's posts. and as for your career/life choice, whichever path you choose to take, just remember how far you have already come. Please stay well now

[TIM11]

Originally Posted by golf898

My Depression has lasted the past 13 years. It has been a long struggle for me to get better. After several years of therapy & neurofeedback I have gotten much better. Going though my therapy process; I learned that my own mother was a Narcissist, and that my childhood was very isolated and lonely from an emotional perspective. My parents were never there for me emotionally, and I have struggled with relationships in my life. I am going to group therapy which is really helping with social skills and personal relationships.

I am finally to the point where I do not have to take Cymbalta anymore. It feels wonderful to have finally made it to the other side of feeling normal after 13 years of depression and 4.5 years of therapy and 2 years of neurofeedback. I am feeling extremely upset right now about having all of those years that were lost that their was nothing that I was able to do about. It took me a long time to figure out that I was able to get help for my illness. Now that I am in my late 30's I am thinking about going back to graduate school and hopefully be able to meet someone and get married. I have gone through so much emotional pain in my life thusfar; and I am looking for some validation that things will get better for me. I have done all this self work, and want something good to come out of it. Why is life so unfair?

hope things get better

[golf898]

Originally Posted by oliamble

Wow a psyc degree golf898 that would be such a great degree in a topic you can relate and help people like us who suffer from depression. I my self went through almost 14 yrs of suffering from depression myself, finally was able to completely stole my meds and instead went on to try natural herbs such as 5htp and St. John wort and they did help for a while but I began to feel a little bad lately. This does mean a lot to you and I wish you good licks in every endeavor you desire to pursue. God bless you.

Thanks for the feedback