[Nobodyandnothing]

I was diagnosed with treatment resistant depression years ago. I have taken more different meds than I can keep track of. I have had numerous ECT treatments that have caused complete memory loss. I am constantly irritable and angry. I think I hate my spouse but I have to rely on him because I have been unemployed for years. I worked so hard to get my law degree and pass the Bar exam and I am disgusted with myself because I cannot seem to get out of this pit. I can't talk to him without screaming or fighting. Everything he does makes me crazy. I wish I could leave but I can't. I have tried therapy but it was useless. I am so incredibly unhappy. Sorry for the rant. I have no friends or other family to talk to. I am going to the pdoc next week and he will want to know how I am. I can't share this with him or anyone. Is this anger and extreme irritability...and even rage at times normal?

[onionknight]

Hello!

I think it is normal to feel frustration and anger with your life, and something that will manifest itself as lashing out, which is just something else to deal with...Your depression is interferring in your ability to live the life you had planned for. If that didn't instigate some serious emotion, you'd be worse off.

How supportive is your doctor? Maybe trying therapy again, where a counsellor tries to help you set small goals to get yourself to a better state would help?

[InfiniteSadness]

I get this often for no reason..