[pinkpony]

hello people,
i dont know whats wrong with me. i was thinking about it today and ever since my gcse's i've been unable to concentrate at all in school..and its been many many years...i got through college because we had an honour system with take-home exams but now that i'm in grad school my inability to concentrate is coming back to haunt me.

i just cannot focus on anything the way i used to be able to do. i used to be pretty good academically til i was about 16 but after that its been a downhill journey. i've talked to both my pdoc and t about this and neither of them takes it very seriously.

i feel like i'm destined to fail and there's nothing i can do about it. i just feel so low and hopeless right now. like there's nothing i can do to become the person i used to be and like i'm destined to fail, i already had to quit grad school twice because of this and this is my third try, i think i'll have to quit this time too.

[Roukan]

Hey!
I'm sorry to hear you're having a hard time right now. Truth is none of us are the people we used to be. Change can be hard to accept at times, some people call it growing pains. Keep your hear up, it can't rain forever.

[golf898]

Hi Pinkpony,

Thanks for sharing your story. I wanted to share with you some information with regard to a process which can fix issues with concentration. My ability to concentrate was gone after having 13 + years of depression. I have been wanting to go back to graduate school for years; but was not able to since I was not able to score well on the GMAT exam. This was very painful for me to accept. I so desperately wanted to improve my life but there seemed to me nothing I was able to do about it; since my brain did not function the way that it used to prior to my depression.

The process that I used to fix my brain in called Neurofeedback. It is a process that can create new neural pathways in your brain; and it can even lift all the brain fog associated with depression. It has been a life changing experience for me. The process starts which hooking electrodes to your brain via a viscous goop which creates electrical contact with your brain. The brain is then hooked to a computer which allows your brain to play various training games. There are specific areas of the brain the deal with concentration as well as anxiety etc. Depending on what you need; the doctor can figure out which areas of your brain need help by using a test called a QEEG. This test allows the doctor to pinpoint that exact areas the need fixing. There are a ton of articles on the internet about Neurofeedback. and it is very popular with people who suffer from depression, ADD, etc. The secession's are not cheap & they are not typically covered by insurance since it is still considered an alternative therapy. I think that they run anywhere from $75 to $100 per secession.

This process changed my life; I hope that this information will be able to help someone else. Best of luck. If you have any questions or need further information on this - please do not hesitate to ask.

Originally Posted by pinkpony

hello people,
i dont know whats wrong with me. i was thinking about it today and ever since my gcse's i've been unable to concentrate at all in school..and its been many many years...i got through college because we had an honour system with take-home exams but now that i'm in grad school my inability to concentrate is coming back to haunt me.

i just cannot focus on anything the way i used to be able to do. i used to be pretty good academically til i was about 16 but after that its been a downhill journey. i've talked to both my pdoc and t about this and neither of them takes it very seriously.

i feel like i'm destined to fail and there's nothing i can do about it. i just feel so low and hopeless right now. like there's nothing i can do to become the person i used to be and like i'm destined to fail, i already had to quit grad school twice because of this and this is my third try, i think i'll have to quit this time too.

[pinkpony]

Thank u for the replies Roukan and golf898.
Golf898 - I'll look into Neurofeedback, thank u very much for the info.

[onionknight]

I know the pain...when I'm most depressed, I lose the ability to even read. For me, the lack of focus and cognitive impairment is amongst the worst symptoms.

[pinkpony]

Originally Posted by onionknight

I know the pain...when I'm most depressed, I lose the ability to even read. For me, the lack of focus and cognitive impairment is amongst the worst symptoms.

Thanks for the reply onionknight. Its one of the worst symptoms for me too and it's unfortunately one that's only been getting worse with time instead of better, despite all the meds. I don't know if this symptom will ever go away or not. It's probably here to stay.

[tigerlily84]

Your post really jumped out at me because my ability to retain information has gone down the drain as well. I am still trying to get up the nerve to even apply to grad school. I don't have any answers for you, but you are definitely not alone in this. I hope you find some answers.

[pinkpony]

Originally Posted by golf898

Hi Pinkpony,

Thanks for sharing your story. I wanted to share with you some information with regard to a process which can fix issues with concentration. My ability to concentrate was gone after having 13 + years of depression. I have been wanting to go back to graduate school for years; but was not able to since I was not able to score well on the GMAT exam. This was very painful for me to accept. I so desperately wanted to improve my life but there seemed to me nothing I was able to do about it; since my brain did not function the way that it used to prior to my depression.

The process that I used to fix my brain in called Neurofeedback. It is a process that can create new neural pathways in your brain; and it can even lift all the brain fog associated with depression. It has been a life changing experience for me. The process starts which hooking electrodes to your brain via a viscous goop which creates electrical contact with your brain. The brain is then hooked to a computer which allows your brain to play various training games. There are specific areas of the brain the deal with concentration as well as anxiety etc. Depending on what you need; the doctor can figure out which areas of your brain need help by using a test called a QEEG. This test allows the doctor to pinpoint that exact areas the need fixing. There are a ton of articles on the internet about Neurofeedback. and it is very popular with people who suffer from depression, ADD, etc. The secession's are not cheap & they are not typically covered by insurance since it is still considered an alternative therapy. I think that they run anywhere from $75 to $100 per secession.

This process changed my life; I hope that this information will be able to help someone else. Best of luck. If you have any questions or need further information on this - please do not hesitate to ask.

hey golf898, i have a question. What type of doctor did you go to for neurofeedback ?