[lucky2001]

yeah so i'm slippling. the truth is i felt it coming. i haven't been going out at all (other than going to work) for a while. i cut off my friends and family. just don't feel like talking to them. things like getting dressed and taking a shower are so hard now. took 2 overdoses in 2 weeks. i just can't even trust myself. and worst of all psychosis is much worse. i used to be able to tell what was real and what wasn't but now i can't. i hate the voices, i hate the visions. i can't even go out anymore because i keep feeling like someone is following me or someone will harm me. and worst of all, i don't know if it's real or not. i haven't told these to anyone, not the overdoses, visions or voices, or not even the "not feeling ok" part. i know i have to talk to my psych doc about this but it's so hard to express things nowadays. i don't even understand myself anymore when i talk. i can't organize my thoughts. i feel like i should be in hospital again but i don't want to.

[Leed]

Lucky, you HAVE to tell your psych doctor EVERYTHING including the voices, the feelings of being followed, everything! How else is he going to treat you? If he doesn't know everything, he doesn't know YOU. It isn't fair to YOU if you don't tell all. You won't get the proper treatment.

He might think you're doing much better than you really are, and what if he discharged you long before you were ready? THEN where would you be? You'd be all alone with NO one to talk to!!

Make sure you're open and honest with your psych doc. Otherwise there is NO POINT in going to him. So next time -- just blurt it out. Just tell him you hear voices, you thing you're being followed and you're not sure if it's real or not. OK? And let us know what happens. Can you do that please? We want the best for you. God bless and please take care. Hugs, Lee

[Nightingale123]

Lucky, I have always lived with an overwhelming feeling of dread everytime the sun went down. Even as a child. What a frightening and dark world it has always been. And I thought it was normal, until, one day I realised it was just me. It brought me into a crisis from age 9 to 16. I am in my mid thirties now. These bad, suffocating feelings did not get most other people. Please tell your doctor and listen for his advice, life can feel better.