this is endless

im tired of this depression and i cant stop being suicidal. i have a lot of things in my head right now but i dont have the right words to describe it. fear, shame, guilt. its been years and years, i feel like im getting worse. far from better. i have few people around me but why is it i feel like i want to rot alone

I'm sorry for what you are going through, talk to me whenever you want. <3 Good luck.

I'm sorry you feel like this...I do too. You're not alone.

I'm sorry your feeling so bad. I too struggle with suicidal feelings constantly. I feel like no one understands and doesn't take me seriously but people just don't know what to say or do. I don't know what the answer is unfortunately. All i can say is try to talk to someone, a therapist and get on meds if your not already. Try to distract yourself from thinking. I use the TV mostly. I wish i had better advice. It sucks feeling like this. Hope things get better for both of us and anyone else going thru this.