[awebb198488]

I am so ready for 2012 to be over. It has been the toughest I can remember in a long time. I'm still not fully convinced that 2013 will be any better, but I do know I'm working very hard to feel better. I've taken many steps to feel better. I see a therapist. I take a Zumba class because I enjoy it and it boosts my self esteem. I've started keeping a journal to write my feelings down when they get stuck in my throat and don't want to come out. I'm trying not to push people away when I am hurting. It is very hard to resist that gut reaction. Of course I also take my meds every day. I'm starting to like the person I see in the mirror. I don't love her yet, but I think I like her. Sometimes I wonder if all this hard work is worth it. I mean, I know living my life and being content is definitely worth it but sometimes I just get tired. Sometimes I wish my heart had a window and people could see how it really feels. I know that will never happen but sometimes I think it would be nice. Well, forgive my ramblings.

oh me too!

2012 has just gone bad to worse- and i'm not even sure if i want 2013 to come or not.. i've had enough of life.

but yeah... it's good this year's finishing

[kharmarulz]

Right there with you not sure what 2013 has in store. But 2012 has been my worst yr ever.

[tigerlily84]

Ditto!

It seems to me that I feel the same way at the end of every year. That can't be good.. :/