[user0928]

Hello, guys. Happy New Year to all of you!

I am in a troubling situation and need some advice. So, I have been prescribed an antidepressant medication. My doctor decided to increase the dosage and wrote a new prescription more than a week ago. My visits to the doctor and medications are covered by the school insurance. The problem is, I'm currently in the process of withdrawing from college and I have also petitioned for the cancellation of tuition and fees for the past semester. If the school approves my petition, I am going to be charged for all my doctor's visits and medications as if I didn't have any school insurance (the amount is a lot). Since I was not going to add another $355 or so for my medication (price without the insurance and generic) to pick it up from my school pharmacy and am currently totally broke at the moment, I went to the community walk-in clinic and got the medication prescribed at the new dosage.

I have picked up the medication at their pharmacy. The problem is: I'm awfully hesitant to ingest it.
Why?
1. The doctor at the walk-in clinic didn't want to write me a prescription because he called a psychiatrist there to get an approval for a medication adjustment, and the psych was hesitant to approve it. After me getting a bit upset at the situation, he eventually agreed. The doctor said that he was going to give me only a 5 day supply until I see a psychiatrist. So I waited quite a long time for him to get the paperwork done or whatever and get the prescription from him. Then the prescription says 30 days supply. What the heck? Also, I showed him a bottle of benzos that I am currently taking, and he was immediately, like: where did you get this from? ....He was alarmed and I found it weird. What the hell?
2. I have had a bad history with this walk-in clinic. They have been so unhelpful in the past encounters with them it's not even funny. They wouldn't prescribe me a benzo, even though I clearly needed it as much as air (ended up with an antihistamine which, of course, didn't do crap). And the psych there called the security on me after I got a bit upset with him. VERBALLY. They proceeded to put me in handcuffs and shipped me off to a psych unit against my will!
3. While I was waiting in the clinic's pharmacy to pick up my medication, their security guy kept entering and leaving, always dropping off a small package (and maybe leaving with one as well, I forgot). I also was not charged for the medication because the pharmacist said that the cashier's office was closed that day. I found these two things weird and unusual.

So these things, all combined, made me alarmed and wary of taking the newly filled medication. Because, what I suspect is that the doctor told the pharmacy to fill me a different medication that would harm me. Maybe that's why he took such a long time to process the paperwork and give me a prescription. In my past dealings with them, I don't remember them taking such a long time and the waiting room was filled with patients! (This day, I was pretty much the last patient left) Maybe it was that security guy who dropped off the harmful medication (who might have cooperated with the local police). I know this sounds totally delusional but what if people in control in this city are conspiring to harm me? I have been having these thoughts consistently for a while, and I have experienced weird things happening to me while in public (people staring at me weirdly, cars leaving in the neighborhood leaving when I walked by etc.). I still cannot make out/up in my mind if I am experiencing paranoia, or people are conspiring against me. Believe me, I have several theories why they could conspire. But that's why I need to take the increased dose of my medication, to get better and solve this problem for once and all (hopefully). Now I am stuck here, still taking a lower dose. I am not going to take a risk of ingesting the pills from a pharmacy of a clinic I don't trust. But that would leave me with a choice of getting it from my school's pharmacy where I would pay, again, about $350 for it. These two options are, of course, immediate choices.

So, what do you recommend, guys? Any thoughts or advice? Do you think I could be suffering from psychosis? Could it be my severe depression and/or severe social anxiety disorder acting out? Does it make sense to feel and think this way? By the way, I live in the U.S.

[Rohag]

Hello & Welcome, User0928! Drugs.com has a Pill Identification Wizard. Perhaps that can offer you some confidence in the medications you have received. I regret the bad experiences you've had at that clinic.

How long will it be before you can see a doctor or psychiatrist you trust?

[Leed]

Why not take these meds to a pharmacy you trust and ask them what they are? They'll be able to tell you just by looking at the pills, most likely. Just tell them the doc didn't tell you what they were and you're just curious.

Best of luck! Keep us posted, okay? Hugs, Lee