[Rone]

I don't what to do anymore. I've been feeling so depressed lately. Nothing helps. Im not good enough at anything and I'm tired of no one caring and having no one to talk to.. they say people care but no one ever shows it.
The counsellor at my sixth form doesn't even listen to me and i don't really like any of my teachers. I feel like I have tried everything.. I eat healthy, I exercise, I try and think positively, I try and make friends, I try hard in school..
My parents have high expectations of me and pressure me to do well. They always make me feel like a moron and they constantly tell me they hate me. I also get really bad mood swings(getting angry over the tinniest things) especially at home and get really angry at my parents but my dad gets quite violent when I get like this. I have tried talking to them about having depression and stuff more than a few times but they just made jokes and told me I was over reacting.
I was considering going to the doctors but I live in a small village and my parents literally know everyone, so I'm a bit paranoid.. Also, my parents never let me go out and they'd ask and won't let me go.
Sixth form is also stressing me out ...I'm failing all my subjects no matter how hard I try and how much effort I put in.. It's never good enough. I also get really lonely because I don't really have any friends..and find it quite hard to make them and keep them..as I don't have that happy, friend making 'aura' you need.. I also have a lot of social anxiety.
I hate living..I feel so alone..nothing gets better, no matter how hard i try..All i ever think about is how pointless me being here is.. i don't know what to do anymore..
Thanks for any help

[Rohag]

Hello & Welcome, Rone! You're in quite the situation...

Originally Posted by Rone

My parents have high expectations of me and pressure me to do well. They always make me feel like a moron and they constantly tell me they hate me. ...I was considering going to the doctors but I live in a small village and my parents literally know everyone, so I'm a bit paranoid.

I would be anxious and paranoid, too! Depression can easily develop in that kind of environment.

Originally Posted by Rone

...but my dad gets quite violent when I get like this.

Rone, do you feel safe at home? Is there anyone in your school to whom you would feel comfortable speaking?

Please keep posting.

[Rone]

Thank you for replying. I did tell a teacher at my old school, but they didn't really do anything about it, so I just left it. It's not too bad at home though, he only ever does anything if I provoke him or if he's tired or whatever. It just adds the pile, makes everything more overwhelming, I guess.