[steph2133]

I am just so sad tonight. I have been up and down and up and down all day. And there doesn't really seem to be any explanation to it. I did get a lot of chores done while I was up but now my husband wants to have a quiet evening in front of the TV. I'm restless, have been the last couple of nights. Can't find anything to do that feels right so I end up sitting at the dining room table by myself coloring. Even that is losing it's appeal. I am actually sitting at this computer with tears running down my face while my husband is in the other room. I don't want him to see me like this, he doedn't really understand the whole depression side of me. I have taken my meds like I am supposed to, they don't seem to have really helped. I could take a xanax to get away from this and sleep but that would just %#@&#! the hubby off. I can never handle it when he is mad, he is not abusive or anything, just get loud and it always makes me cry which makes it worse until I run away to the bedroom and cry myself to sleep. It would all be so much easier if he could be a little empathetic or understanding. Maybe that is what is really getting me down, I don't know. I'm just sad, not as bad as it can get but I feel like I am having to work too hard to keep it from getting bad. It is just too exhausting.

[Rhapsody]

((((((( HUGS )))))))) ~ ~ ~ ((((((( HUGS ))))))))

I understand where you are coming from..... for it HURTS when someone does not or cannot see your side of the fence.... especially when it is the one you love and that is supposed to love you back with all his heart.

Maybe next time he gets angry at you for being the way you are while depressed, how about raising your voice a few notches and see how he likes it - - - just a thought.


LoVe,
Rhapsody -

[(JD)]

Yes, that's depression. (((hugs))) Keep on fighting, but be sure to get enough sleep and eat properly. Do you have meds to help you? Maybe they need to be adjusted a little? TC of yourself... keep on..

i agree, it's really hard when you have depression and a family member/loved one doesn't understand. i wish that i could do something right now, to help you.......we will listen and support you here. please keep posting. xoxoxo pat

[Christina86]

*****hugs******

I am sorry that today has been so up and down for you. That is depression for you. I'm sorry you're struggling ... please talk to us when you feel able, we'll listen and try to help. Take care of yourself.

[desirae]

Depression sucks. I'm sorry you're going through this and not receiving any at home support. I know how difficult that can be. I'm glad you came here and reached out, although online support is not near the real thing, it is much much better then nothing.

Maybe altering your meds and trying around till you have something more affective will help too.

[steph2133]

Thank you so much for the kind words. I am feeling better this morning, a good nights sleep has really helped. Thank you.