[cw13]

Hi,

I am new to this forums and hope to get help. I am suffering from depression and OCD since 1997. I have been receiving treatment but not really of much help. The main problems why i feel Psychiatrist or Psychologist cannnot help much is because i have this illusion problems. At time, I don't know whether it is just illusion or really have such thing happening. For example when i went to see a Psychologist, after the Psychologist listen to my problems, he offer me a method to use when my problems or negative thoughts come to my mind. He told me to just let the thought come, do not do anything to it, do not fight it, just let it go. I feel this method is good and helpful. However my illusion problems tend to stop the method. I don't know whether it is illusion or really have such things happening. I seen to hear the Psychologist said that the just let the thought come, do not do anything to it, do not fight it, just let it go method is not suitable for my condition and I cannot use it for my problems. At time when i use the computers, i will tend to see that the just let the thought come, do not do anything to it, do not fight it, just let it go method should not be used to help person with depression or OCD. The more i think about it, it seem to be real. But I feel it is just my illusion. What should i do to overcome this problems?

[Marcelo]

First thing I can say is "do not operate heavy machinery". I don't.

What if you try to write it all down. Walk with a pen and paper (pencil and smartphones can be erased) and log your interactions. Then ask people you trust to review these interactions and find a trigger for the illusions.
You can also ask them to write the review (day/hour/real or not) in a separate book that you will never ever write yourself. This will further prevent an "illusory review event" that compromise the data gathering.

Don't take me too serious thou, I'm not a doctor, I'm a engineer... I'm not diagnosing, I'm "bugfixing"

Once you have enough data, show it all to your therapist and try finding a common cause for those odd moments. Better yet... the brain has some method to separate real memories from imaginary ones. You may want to explore if it's not just a matter of yours not being able to tell the difference when both are committed to long term memory, thus giving you the impression that some thought really happened. If you can map your real memories from the made ones, maybe a catscan could show something when you try to recall both in detail.

hope it helps

[cw13]

thks Marcelo!