That lonely feeling

They are turning into those ghost towns you only see on tv. Almost everybody I've ever known has moved away. I went there last year to watch my brother graduate and every student had to say where they were going after graduation. %90 of them said move. about %60 of them said move to Phx for schooling. Who is going to be left to populate that town? hahaha Oh I just remembered. Just the other day I saw a super old ex there from like 12 years ago just out of the blue. That was crazy. It was a "hi, hug, bye" thing. Weird. Anyways.
I can't do X. I get a little... unstable and emotional. Lol. They call it the "love drug" for a reason.
Your neighborhood sounds disgusting. I used to live in a ghetto like that. Yuck. You should carry a gun. From sick and twisted mom jokes at work to crackhead friends that would rob you blind just to get high again... F that.

Not to stray too far from the subject, how have you been holding up? I mean, emotionally. Not in your house. lol

actually surprisingly well...the best since I've moved out of my apartment...I mean, I miss my boyfriend and everything....but I'm not stressing about him not calling or anything...I guess I just have abandonment issues...lol....but I talked to him a couple of times since he's been gone, and I know he's busy with his family and getting things situated for the funeral and every time he does call he sounds ok....so I'm glad he's not wallowing in a pit of despair and if he isn't than I should stay upbeat for him....if that makes any sense...
And the past few days I've been doing like arts and crafts...lol...completely girlifying this man cave...I figure just because it's the ghetto it doesn't have to look like it inside...so I been painting and all sorts of things in here...it's actually a really great stress relief!
And this site helps too...I'm pretty glad I joined as well...it always helps to talk out your feelings...esp to people who you don't really know because they are unbiast....it's pretty much (in my opinion) the same as talking to a therapist....only difference is you get more than one opinion, it's free....downside though: no anti so and so drugs....lol.

I have abandonment issues as well. Not going to lie. Yeah, you staying positive probably helps a lot, though he might not show it or ever repeat it. LOL OMG you're not supposed to decorate the man's mancave! He is either going to laugh or get mad. Or both. lol I on the other hand would love something like that. It's so dull here.

Eh. F all those anti drugs. I've done enough to know that being a zombie isn't worth it. And yeah I like, and rather prefer, telling my problems to a bunch of people not face to face. It comes out more. I actually went into a lot of detail. So now I don't have to repeat myself or tell the story ever again. Step one is to never speak of it, right? I'm sure after complaining about the same thing so many times, not only do people get tired of hearing it, you grow tired of saying it.

Glad you're doing okely dokely tho. Lol. I'm combating another hangover. Fuuuuu

lol...he said I could do whatever I wanted in here....he even felt bad about moving me to the ghetto...but considering my situation with the apartment I really can't complain. lol speaking of the ghetto I just walked back from circle k to buy some smokes and some "gangsta" just tried to pick me up in a mini van....smh....I need an adult :P

An SV, nigga? Lol That's a new one. Small town gangsters are rather amusing, huh? What's the deal with this man? He coming back? Moving back? Or does he not even know.

My boyfriend? Oh he's only gone for this week for his brother's funeral...he's coming back on Monday...he has a good job out here and his son is out here.

Oh OK. That's good. I thought he was thinking about skipping out or something after reading that "5yr" post.

No...Well, I hope not! lol...He says he's liked me since he met me...but I'm just pretty insecure when it comes to relationships...I've been dumped, cheated on, etc....but this one's genuinely a really good guy. Plus I'll key his car or something if he does do that..lol jk...kinda.

Lmao. Anything but a man's vehicle! Hey I'm like you, too! Lol insecure, cheated. Etc. That's so funny cuz we both think the opposite sex is kind of crummy and a good one is very rare to come by. When is said man supposed to be arriving back?

THE EX Kitchen Knife Set by Raffaele Iannello, Black:Amazon:Kitchen & Dining OMG I had to share this. Isn't she gorgeous? Lol

lmao! Best knife set...EVER! He comes back on Monday...Right now the place looks like a bunch of messy preschoolers ran through here...lol...there's paint and glue and glitter everywhere...lol

Monday huh? I'll remember. Isn't that the coolest knife block in the world??? I want it. And how funny would it be if he came home to a kindergarten class? Kids and all. Lol

lol...I think he's be a little confused to a house full of kindergarteners...lol....plus, I have a hard enough time keeping up with his 4 year old when he comes over....lol...I accidentally made up a game called RAMBO (where Rambo is Rambo but wears a tie around his head and his weapon is a spatula) and SKATEBOARD GIRL...I'm usually skateboard girl...the bad guy and I have to ride my skateboard while he attacks me with a spatula....so now whenever he comes over he won't leave me alone until I agree to play....lol.

How many kids does this guy have? It must be real love to get involved with kids. And that's cute. And kind of hilarious. Does he smash you with the cooking utensil? Lol You should teach him the "calm down and quiet" game. I love teaching kids that game. Lol when he gets home to all the kids, confess they are all your kids and have a secret to tell him. You are actually octomom. Hahahahaha I'm jk

He only has the one...and I've known him since he was born...I even babysat him occasionally when he was an infant....so it's not like one of those awkward hanging out with the boyfriend's kid kinda thing.
Hahaha, that would be hilarious...Octomom....hmm, what happened to that crazy lady?

Oh, ya. That's much less weird than it sounds. I have no idea what happened. I'm sure she lives off welfare in some eastern state like the rest of them. I don't watch TV, soooooo lol I like how this went from problems to joking around. Now we have extended this forum into something that belongs in a sub forum. Lol we win

Lol....that, sir, is definitely a win!

SIR! I am in no way, shape, or form, involved in any niggardom!!!! hahahaha Guess what I did? Go ahead. I'll give you 3 hints. .. wait no I won't. lol

http://s3-ec.buzzfed.com/static/enha...59568228-9.gif LMFAO!!!!!!!

Is that you?

Lol no. But when I saw it I spit up my soda from laughing. Lol I wanna dance like that but with a penguin helmet.

My brother does the random horse face pictures all the time...he even did it in Vegas. Wuddadork!
So today was my boyfriend's brother's funeral...He sounds sooooo sad...my heart is totally breaking for him :-/

Hey, my message didn't post!

Anyways when I saw that horse I died laughing. I've been at work dealing with a huge huge hangover. Sucks. I'm good now.

Funerals are never a happy time. /: but as I said earlier all you can is console and wait.