[jean17]

Everything has been good. I've actually been enjoying being alive. But this morning I woke up with the demons back again. I try so hard not to let them get to me, but they work in ways that I do not understand. I feel sad and alone and hopeless again even though nothing has changed from yesterday when things seemed okay. I just want to disappear. I don't want to go out or be anywhere near people. But I have choir practice today, which usually I enjoy. Today I don't even want to go. I just want to stay home and be alone. Why does it keep coming back? Why don't I have any control over it? I hate that it rules my life. It's not fair that we try so hard and then it hits us again out of no where for no reason.
Sad & despairing

[roads]

Days change, little and bigger things that affect our body chemistry vary with the day ... and so the Demons sneak in sometimes without our knowing why. It's usually a chemical thing. Meds often help balance these changes, but sometimes not. Any alcohol or other drug will affect things, even too little sleep or too much stress. Usually, for most of us, it's balanced out by the next day.
If not, I'd be calling my pdoc.
Sorry ... try to have a quiet day.
roadie