i am so sorry - TRIGGER

More big hugs for you shady! I am SO glad that you are finding the hospital you are in to be ok

Thanks for the letter Shady, and thanks to whiteNight for sharing it with us here. We'll be here for you when you return. It's good to hear you are in a supportive group!

OH noo I'm so sorry this happen to you. >< I'm glad that you are still here

from shady
{Shady sat straight up in bed at night and said "hey, there's no raisins in our oatmeal!" Her room mate said, "No, there aren't and that's OK." So shady said "Ok." and went back to sleep.}

Thanks again for all the support while she is getting better.

from shady

"Hi friends,

I am in the woman's program which focuses on trauma in all groups. It is hard and I need some encouragement please. Looking at soonest discharge being late next week. Love you all and think of you always.

Huggles, Tickletackles, farts, pounces and licks,

Shady

Shadows!!!!!!!!!!!!


Take advantage of this chance to do trauma work while you are in a place that can help keep you safe. You can do it.

Glomps,
Googley.

*HUGS*

I am glad you are getting some help. I know how hard being in the hospital can be, just always remember we all love you and want you to get better. HAng in there! You can do it!

Shady,
I am so glad that you are finally putting yourself first. That is a huge step. Keep taking those baby steps too. You are loved and missed by lots. Hope you are back here soon. Love ya
buttr

Sometimes I feel I really need to go myself...
Please feel better, I really hope you do..
Even if I do not know you.. I know how you feel..
I wish you the best and that is coming from the bottom of my heart.

Letter update from Shady

"Today was a horrible day. Feel like I am being pushed into a crisis working on the trauma while I'm supposed to be getting better. I am very sad and don't want to do this hard work.

Love and Huggles

Shady"

Any words of encouragement would be most appreciative.

((((((((((Shadows)))))))))))))))
Trauma work is so hard! Know that doing it in a place where you are safe will be easier than trying to do it outpatient. Take care of yourself and take advantage of the supports you have.


: glomps shadows

Shady,
I have been praying for u!

I know this is hard for you but I also know u are a survivor, keep on keeping on girl.

Please make sure that u have a plan in place before u leave, that is so important.

Love ya!!

update from Shady:

"I went to AA tonight. I heard if I am unwilling to admit I am powerless then it equals continuous effort to prove xyz. I see that as if I am unwilling to admit my mother is incapable of loving me it results in continuous efforts by me trying to prove I am love-able. I let go of my mom.

Today the therapist was talking about self forgiveness, we asked her how we could forgive our self when we have put ourselves in dangerous situations and done untold harm/damage. She got down on our level ( we were sitting on the floor). There is nothing to forgive myself for. Instead I need to accept that I did the best I knew how to do to cope with life. I did what I knew how to keep myself safe.

I couldn't do this without all your support.

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PS

On2, whats new down aisle 7?

Googley: tickletackles
Nicole: huggles
Buttr: Love ya!
Tator: thx so much
Nemos: squeezes so hard you farts
Amazonmom: ah, I miss you.

Good to hear from you. Wishing you continued success with your recovery. Keep up the good work. I'm so happy for you. Please keep us in the loop.

((((((((((((Shadows)))))))))))))))

Miss you much. Keep doing the hard work. They are right. You are not at fault. You are doing your best and have done what you have known to stay safe. You can do this. Take care of yourself.

Googley tickleglomps shadows!

((((( Shadows )))))

I wish you all the best in your recovery (perhaps it's more accurate to say growth and personal development?) Thanks for letting us know how you are doing.

shadows wish you all the best

Wishing you all the best. I'm glad you let us know how you are.

Tara!

I miss you so much. I hope that each day is easier than the last. Know that you are in my thoughts and prayers. You can do this. We are all cheering for you. Keep up the good work and return to us soon.
((((((((((((Tara))))))))))))

Still praying for you shady!!! Love ya
Buttr

update from Shady (replies are most welcomed)

"Hi all,

Today is Wednesday March 13th. I am doing very well today. I have gained a lot of insight and know there is a purpose for my being. But, knowing is only half the battle. The other half is doing. Doing for me is accepting life on life's terms. I must live for today only and never look past the time that I know I have, which is today, right now. I'm still not sure when I will be out, but I am okay. I am better than okay, I am content. I hope you all are well. I will chat with you at my earliest convenience.

Love and Huggles,
Shady"

Poem from Shady

Pale Reflections dance upon the water,
showing me beauty, strength, courage and hope.
Allowing me to see the truth of who I am.
Beauty from acceptance of life's struggles.
Strength for facing challenges head on.
Courage for fighting the next battle.
and Hope that I will always have the desire
to do and be better.
As I see who I am and who I can be the
water stills itself with resolution.
God in His infinite wisdom plots my course.

03/13/13

SO happy to hear that you are doing so much better! I'm glad you are feeling content and are seeing some hope. Keep up the amazing work, and I look forward to chatting with you when you come home!

SSSHHHHHAAAAAAADDDDDDDDOOOOOOOOOWWWWWWWWSSSSSSS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

So glad to hear that you are doing better. I am so glad that you are finding the help that you need. We are here for you whenever you are able to talk to us. We aren't going anywhere. (though you know for my job i do kind of have to drive all over town. but i always return so don't hold that against me.) Keep up the good hard work. I love you.

Many Tickeglomps,
Googley.

hi shady i hope u keep doing good i care about u and i know a lot of people do ill be here if u ever need to talk to me huggles

((((( Shady ))))) I'm so happy to hear you are doing better. Please continue to keep in touch.