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I am giving up on life and on being happy. I can't take all the stress anymore and all the heartbreak, confusion, anger, depression, mixed emotions all around me and I HATE IT! I hate everything lately. I hate my fiancee for making me love him no matter what he does to make me mad or hurt me. I hate myself for caring about everyone else before me. I hate life because it is too hard to live. I hate all of my exes for being abusive and controlling and manipulative and not respecting me when I said no. I hate people who won't get out of my head and quit visiting my dreams and hallucinations. I want it all to stop. So I surrender. Throwing in the towel. I'm going to continue to self medicate and continue to **** my life up because that is all I'm good at anyway.
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I'm sorry you are in so much pain. I don't know what to say other than someone has heard you and cares about your life.
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Depressedgirl, who trained you to accept abuse and turn the resulting anger on yourself? Did it start with your exes, or did it precede them? (Forgive me. I'm having a difficult time suppressing my own anger at those who manipulate others' emotions, at those who manipulated you to blame yourself.)
Wishing you safety...
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Everyone has. Everyone I trust hurts me and uses me
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You have been a member for 5 years and you posted here again. I know the PC members are avatars on the internet, but you must find it comfortable to return and post your feelings.
I hope when you are ready, you can see a therapist. Keep posting.
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That is another reason to cancel the engagement, in addition to all the other reasons that have been discussed at length in your thread on Sexual and Gender Issues.
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I want to see a therapist now but no time or insurance
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What do you mean "no time"?
With regard to insurance, try to find an intern. They charge MUCH less. I have a great T who is an intern. She already has a PhD and works under the supervision of a licensed psychologist. She is fabulous. |
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I work 2 jobs and go to school. I don't have time to sit down much less else. I think I want to quit one of my jobs though.
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Then you are doing pretty well considering how depressed you are. Just a thought: if you are too stressed out, that alone can contribute to feeling depressed. So maybe if you quit one of the jobs, your condition will improve by itself.
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I'm sorry.
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I have already been thinking about quitting the one I just got. I think when I go in tomorrow I'm just going to tell him I don't have time for a 2nd job.
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I think you are making the right call. Sometimes you need to drop a class or quit a PT job to stay healthy. You are not a Superwoman anyway.
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#14
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I'm definitely not quitting school. That is way more important to me than a stupid 2nd job
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That's good - so you have your priorities all lined up correctly.
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Yea I guess
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