[Ohlostme]

Can't seem to stop crying today. No clue why. Nothing is terribly wrong. Just LOTS of little things, all at once. I seem to get one problem after another -- almost like they were arriving on an assembly line. Tiresome. But, when almost nothing good ever happens, to balance things out, it can feel unbearable.

I keep thinking of Ashleigh Brilliant quotes...

"Just when I thought I had my problems on the run they’ve rallied and are now staging a counter attack." (Not sure the quote is totally accurate, but it's close enough)

"There’s nothing on my mind that couldn’t be expressed by a long insane outburst of hysterical rage." INDEED.

And, finally...

"I think I’ll just sit here and wait until life gets easier." (And cry some more, in the meantime...)

Sigh

[ster]

I'm sorry you are feeling this way but it is good sometimes to get a good cry out of the way. I hope your day gets better.

[Ohlostme]

I just saw the ***** (neighbor) who vandalized my car last month. I didn't even know what she looked like before, but I saw her outside the building today. I was so stunned that I didn't confront her, but now I wish I had. I'd like to put my fist through her ugly face. I know that'd cause a lot of trouble that I don't need right now (I might even end up having to move, which I can't afford to do, at the moment), but I WANT REVENGE!!!! After a lifetime of being made a victim by every piece of garbage who gets their jollies bullying someone, THIS time I want some comeuppance. I feel like NOT doing something would be like saying it was ok for her to make me a victim.

I've been in a rage all day, from seeing her. I even yelled at my poor cats, who didn't do anything to deserve it. Then, for the last couple of hours, I've been crying, on & off. I feel like my taking the high road and NOT taking a baseball bat to her head would be SOOOOO unfair to me. And my life has been SO unfair, all along. But I've never had any kind of satisfaction from the bullies who've made me a victim. When do I get to have something that's fair to me? I've been a good person, in spite of what's been done to me. It's just TOO wrong that I have to be %#@&#! on and pretend that it didn't happen or it doesn't matter. It does, damn it!

[Hopefull]

Wow! That would probably make anybody cry. I'd want to pop the person too. However, I am glad that you didn't because of the consequences. I suspect the momentary pleasure would not be worth the consequences. Was the police notified about the vandalism of your car? Do you have any evidence that she did it? I hope you can get justice. If not, I hope you find a way to deal with the anger that you must be feeling right now.

[Ohlostme]

"Was the police notified about the vandalism of your car?"

Yes, I went to them.

"Do you have any evidence that she did it?"

No. I took the car in and got the tire changed immediately (I was on my way somewhere and wanted to get going). The police told me that, if I had brought the tire in, they might have had something to go on. But, since I had it replaced right away (the tires were under warranty), they had no evidence it was her. But, the tires were too new for it to just be a puncture. Also, it came shortly after an incident in which I called parking enforcement because she was letting her visitors park in tenant's parking spaces. The management company actually told me to have people towed, who parked there and weren't tenants. I didn't. I only called Parking Enforcement, whose job it is to write tickets. She got mad and retaliated.