So close to giving up and ending everything

Hi,
I wasn't sure if I should make this thread or anything because I feel like I am not worth it....im really really struggling to keep going at the minute and all I want to do is curl up and die...everything is too much and I cant cope anymore,bullying and everything is all too much ...right now I just feel like going out and killing myself

I wish I could help. But I just don't know what to say...

I know its hard sometimes. Eat something to help you feel betterr. Try to do something you usually enjoy.

I have tried and its just no use I feel like crying and all I want is the guts to just kill myself im fed up of being here now

I'm sorry. I feel the exact same way. That I want to just curl up and die. It's miserable. I don't know what to say. I'm sorry. I really am. I wouldn't wish this on anyone.

I've been there a lot before. From my experience suicide isn't a good solution for what is making you feel bad. I have attempted twice and niether one of those attempts helped me any. A person can only cope with so much before they want to give up. If things are that bad a hospital is an option. Even if you don't have money or insurance you hospitals have to treat you and that includes mental illness. Depression impairs your thinking and makes it seam like killing yourself is the only way out, but that isn't true. If you are feeling suicidal you can call 911 and they can admit you to a crisis center if you feel you are a danger to yourself. I did that once and spent a week in a hospital. It helped me get away from my enviroment and calm down enough to get into therapy to start dealing with depression. If you feel like you are a danger to yourself I urge you to call 911 or go to a hospital for help.

Do Not Do it !!!! I have been where you are at. It takes you over,you feel as if there is no other way out period....i know, trust me !!!! You have to lie down and just cry ,scream and reach out as you are doing now !!! Honestly you are in a good place. you can admit this and you do not want this for yourself.I repeat ,do not do it !! You are special and to put it blunt their are good days and bad days. I do not feel like going on either. Just when it gets soooo bad I lay down to prevent myself from moving to anything that could hurt me and cry cry cry !!!! I scream i cuss i let it all out. and i keep going. it sucks i know. i have been on the floor too many times but I have made it through....I know you can !!! I do not know you but I know what tries to stop you from wanting to even breathe - do not let it. you have a purpose.you cant let it get you.some favorite emotional music blaring can sometimes help me. you cant hold all that stuff that wants you gone inside just let it out...if people do not get it oh well. its not their life on the line and you do not have to apologize for wanting to live and or having a life !!!!! be around only people who want the best for you.especially in this stage...

((((girl interrupted)))). Hang in there, though i know it's hard.

thanks

hi ,im really not doing great tonight ...ive hurt myself a lot and everything seems really pointless

Girlinterrupted,
I understand exactly what your feeling.
I've had many moments in the last couple weeks that I wished that I could just sit down and shutdown. Just will my heart and brain to stop doing their jobs, and let me be free. Free of myself and my issues.

But, somehow, God always gives me a glimmer of hope that I can feel good again, and not have to live in a fog of forgetfulness.

I know it gets hard, not just sometimes, but often, when you have a life. Having a life could be children at home, a career, or school. All of these things bring stress. Some good stress, some bad stress.

But, what has helped me, and I know this is lame, but I bought a cheap guitar, and I'm going to learn how to play. I've always wanted to learn, but hated playing the trumpet in school, so I always told myself discouraging self talk, and talked myself out of it. But, I read somewhere that learning something new will help your entire person, body, soul, and spirit. I know I need all the help I can get, so I dove in head first.

Maybe there is something you've always wanted to do, or learn, or someplace you've always wanted to go.
If you have the means, try something constructive that you've always wanted to do, within reason of course...

We're here for you. Maybe not 24x7, but we're all in this together.



woundedhealer7

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I'm sorry to hear that.

Hi Girl-Interrupted,

I just wanted to say goodnight before I go to bed. I am thinking of you. I know how painful it is, as do many on the forum, because we share these exact feelings. I feel completely hopeless everyday and I can't give you a magic answer. Nothing gives me hope. But I don't want see you hurt yourself or leave this world. You matter. I know it's hard to "feel" that, because when a couple of people told that to me this week I just couldn't feel it in my heart even though I heard the words. But I will say it anyway. You matter, a lot. And I care about you. Anything I can do, please let me know. Please keep posting. I'm worried about you and it's unbearable to think that you'd decide to leave this world. Please try anything you can do to stay safe.

Thankyou guys for all your support your all really lovely but right now I feel like I don't deserve any of it and that I shouldn't have posted , each day is getting harder , right now I feel numb and because I feel numb :/ I'm in danger of hurting myself

Hi there!

Do you have anyone to talk to?
Do you attend psychotherapy?

hugs!

and - remember, that you will not die.
And that means, you are coping with it. You're perhaps stronger than a lot of people on earth.
that's what makes us human, is we can cope with it. We can cope with feeling like hell for a long time.
I know how you're feeling, and trust me, it's gonna get better.
if you need anything, feel free to let me know. i can help.

good night!