[confusednalone1887]

I have a seizure disorder, which isn't always easy to deal with. I was diagnosed with it while I was serving in the Army. I often make jokes about it as I can and I try to set an example for those who are disabled as well so they see that just because you are disabled it doesn't mean you can't overcome. But, although I put on a strong face to my friends and family, it really hurts me. I depend on so many people for basic things. I can't drive my car, so I have to be driven around. I can't spend time alone with my daughter because of what might happen. I can't go to the bathroom for more than five minutes without someone checking up on me and people are always checking up on me. Its hard for me to earn a living because when I am at work people often spray chemicals around me which can trigger a seizure or just make my head feel weird. Sometimes I just lay in bed all day because I'm afraid to get up. I hate going to the hospital because I've spent so much time there. I hate that I don't have better control over this. I worry that one day I'll have a seizure and hit my head just right and my daughter will grow up without her father. I worry that when she is old enough to be married I may end up with a traumatic brain injury and not be all there to give her the attention she needs. I just feel like a burden to those I love. I feel like a bad father because of my limitations, limitations I try to overcome but often fail. How do I overcome this? How can I become the parent I want to be, the husband I should be, and the man I hope to be while still remaining safe and being able to provide?

[Leed]

First of all, thank you for your service to our country! It is so appreciated! Secondly, it sounds as tho you have suffered for a long time,, and for that I'm sorry.

Do you have to be treated by the VA? I hope not. Sometimes those doctors are just not what they should be. What you need is therapy. You need to see a good psychiatrist, if you haven't already. No, you're certainly NOT crazy, but a good psychiatrist could help you with the depression and also prescribe medications while being careful about the seizures!! You may not even NEED medications, but a psychiatrist can prescribe if need be.

So ask your doctor for a referral to a good psychiatrist -- he'll know the best one to send you to. And jeez I hope it's not in the VA. At any rate, please keep us posted as to how you're doing, will you? We DO care! God bless and take care of yourself. Hugs, Lee

[doyoutrustme]

I agree on finding a good, reputable doctor. I know everyone is different but there are remarkable treatments out there for seizure disorders.

I recently saw a documentary which included a little girl with a severe seizure disorder and they were able to target the source and get rid of her seizures. It was amazing.

It has subtitles, but it was very interesting. its about 5 different people, one of them is this lttle girl. Very inspiring.
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