[mulan]

Every time I am with somebody, i just feel i'm a fake. I guess i never meant anything I say. I just don't have nothing to say and i push my self to say something. I just feel like a pretender, everytime, i guess, with everyone.
The other people just seem so natural and i'm the one that has nothing to say.

[CharactorAssassin]

I think most people are making an effort like yourself it just appears that way.
Also there are different personality types like myers Briggs types. Some people are more fluid or charismatic. It just their type.
Also the myers Briggs types don't change very much I don't think.
You can do a test online for free.

[jitters]

I like Assassin's suggestion to take the MB test. Sometimes it helps to know that you're naturally introverted and that it's perfectly normal to have to work harder at making conversation. It's been my experience that introverts are terrible at small talk, but big talk...now that's an introvert's forte, and you can use it to your advantage. You can impress people and make friends out of more interesting kinds of people if your idea of an ice breaker is something like, "So what would you do tomorrow if you woke up knowing you only had 24 hours to live?"

The extroverts may rule the social sphere, but the introverts are the ones that make the world a more interesting place. You just have to spend a little time thinking of unique conversation starters. And don't put pressure on yourself to be a social butterfly. You'll meet plenty of people in your lifetime who will appreciate your quiet, reflective nature.

Now if social anxiety, or depression, is at the root of your silence, or a compounding factor, that's definitely something that should be addressed before you slot yourself into the "introvert" category. Sometimes introverts are really anxious/depressed extroverts.

[mulan]

It's not at small talk...big or small everything is a problem to me. I hope this isn't the real me, cause if it is I don't like me.
I make an effort an even so almost everything I say, is so antinatural, so uninteresting.
Most of the time I have no ideas for conversations and I just keep my mouth shut. And if people talk to me the only thing I can do is smille, I don't have words.
I don't have stories, I don't have nothing to share, really. And I find me sharing stories than even don't interest me. Maybe this is the thing about me that bothers me the most. I could live with lack of confidence and self-steem, I could leave with my anxius personality, but i don't stand the one that is never there, and that hasn't nothing to say anytime. But I guess I'm the only one.