[jean17]

Just when things feel kind of okay, you get walloped upside-the-head by a day of un-understandable depression and despair. Such is today. No reason to feel bad. Just woke up, well, not wanting to wake up and face yet another day. I feel so guilty. I am completely okay and then suddenly I question my very existence. Is it worth staying here? Is there really any meaning in life? Does it matter whether I live or die? Does it matter whether I live or die, now, rather than, say, tomorrow? What difference will it make? If all my life is a desperate call for something that I can't get here, shouldn't I just try the other side?

Feelin' blue, hugs will do. Thanks.

[Cocosurviving]

Sending you a BIG hug. I battle "D" days too.

[Leed]

Hi dear Jean ~ Have you been formally diagnosed with depression? Are you taking medications?

If not, I would suggest that you have your doctor either refer you to a good therapist, or get on some medication! You can't keep up this extreme high/low stuff. It will drive you insane!

Medication helps to even things out -- to stabilize you. The chemicals in our brain get out of whack and they need replacing by the medication. When we have a steady stream of these chemicals in our system it keeps us stable. Our moods don't go from extreme highs to pits so deep we can't get out.

Please talk to your doctor about this. I'm sure he can help you. And if you're already on medication, then it needs either changing or the dosage increased. But something isn't working! And if you're already in therapy, your therapist isn't doing something right! YOU can control your sessions and talk about what YOU want. If there are things YOU need to talk about, tell him.

I wish you the very best. Let us know what happens, ok? Hugs, Lee

[Idiot17]

(((((Jean17)))). I have those days too more often than not.

[jean17]

Originally Posted by Leed

Hi dear Jean ~ Have you been formally diagnosed with depression? Are you taking medications?

If not, I would suggest that you have your doctor either refer you to a good therapist, or get on some medication! You can't keep up this extreme high/low stuff. It will drive you insane!

Medication helps to even things out -- to stabilize you. The chemicals in our brain get out of whack and they need replacing by the medication. When we have a steady stream of these chemicals in our system it keeps us stable. Our moods don't go from extreme highs to pits so deep we can't get out.

Please talk to your doctor about this. I'm sure he can help you. And if you're already on medication, then it needs either changing or the dosage increased. But something isn't working! And if you're already in therapy, your therapist isn't doing something right! YOU can control your sessions and talk about what YOU want. If there are things YOU need to talk about, tell him.

I wish you the very best. Let us know what happens, ok? Hugs, Lee

Thanks so much for being there for me. Yes, I'm on Mirtazipine, Quitiapine, Effexor, Clonazepam, Lyrica and Zopiclone. I agree that my meds need adjusting. I hate feeling this way. When I check my diary I see that I have just about as many good days as bad. Will ask my psych doc to do something. I am diagnosed with chronic depression, GAD and social phobia. Will increasing the Mirtazipine, Quitiapine and/or Effexor help with anxiety? I know my doc doesn't want to have me on more Clonazepam. But I've started taking lots of Valerian to combat the anxiety.

Any suggestions are welcome. to all.