Hello. This is my first time on here. I've been dealing with depression for 7 years. I've been through quite a bit, somehow, i have managed to survive. When I first became depressed...in fact it's HOW my docs and I figured out I was depressed...I slept for days, weeks at a time. Prior to that I was a VERY HIGH functioning adult and insanely optimistic. Not manic just very active. As the years passed I have become "lazy" for lack of a better term. It just got worse and worse and ultimately led to problems at my job 2.5 years ago (dream job) and I had to leave. I've worked here and there since however it was very hard. In July of last year I had a "nervous breakdown" and just started feeling "better" mid February. The only way I can explain how I feel is, I have "desire" to do things but I feel I can't. I just get up, watch tv, nap, eat, take a shower (only took one per week from July to December 2012), and go to doctors appointments (sometimes I cancel.) I can't even get myself to go for a short walk, visit a friend, talk to my parents...nothing! It's so frustrating. I feel like I need to "pull up my boot straps" however I can't and I don't know how to fix this. I was never a "I can't" person, I'm so desperate to start my life over and get a job and just get back to living. Has anyone expierenced this? And if so how did you get out of it? (I'm seeing a therapist (2x a week) and im on meds.) Thank you in advance.
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