[yellowfrog268]

It's another beautiful sunny day here. Moderate temperatures and plenty going on in the community and yet here I sit indoors.

I'm getting so tired of one beautiful day after another passing by and me not being able to enjoy them. If it isn't due to a serious lack of money to go out with, then it's the fact that my husband sleeps all day because he works at night so no one to keep me company or do stuff with. Because of his work schedule, the house must remain quiet as can be during the day so no playing a radio and television has to be kept at a low volume. I don't have any family and only one person I consider a close friend but she does not live near by. I have great difficulty with social interactions so making new friends is not likely.

Just a rant, but getting more and more down about the days passing by and me not being able to enjoy them. Seriously starting to affect my outlook. I keep wondering---"Is this all there is for me?" I already suffer bouts of depression for other reasons but this situation is not helping.

Hi Yellowfrog: My situation is different, but there are similarities. I haven't held a job for about a dozen years or so due to a combination of both physical & mental health problems. I'm married & my wife works full time. We only own one car & we live in the burbs. There are a few stores near us & a coffee shop. But otherwise there's no place I can get to without a car. So Monday- Friday, I'm pretty much stranded.

I'm also agorophobic. So going out anywhere, especially alone is uncomfortable. As a result, I spend almost all of my time on either PC or on YouTube. I have joked a few times that, if the internet ever went down, it would take my whole life with it (LOL!) There's some truth to this.

I have thought many times that I should try to find some volunteer work to do. I also don't make friends easily & in fact I don't have any. Doing some volunteer work might be a way of meeting some people & developing some friendships. At least it would get me out of the house. But there's nothing close enough for me to get to. Also I would miss PC & all of my YouTube friends!

Anyway, I just thought I'd share my story since it sounds like there are some similarities. My best wishes to you!

Hello yellowfrog. I agree with bones' idea that volunteering, even if its for an hour a week may help. I live out in the country with relatives who have been kind enough to let me live with them, but I have no car. The nearest public transport is about 3 miles away so I am also often stranded. Physical disabilities prevent me from making any real journey out by foot. But I haven't given up. I know I'm lucky to have a roof over my head.

[Fuzzybear]

(((((((( yellowfrog )))))))

[yellowfrog268]

Thanks everyone for the ideas and hugs. Just read in an email today that my local chapter of Habitat for Humanity is looking for helpers of all skill level.

Might give it a try.