[Hopefull]

My manager has cut my hours drastically. When I saw the schedule for this week, I wanted to rip his head off or throw everything in my apartment. I have told him once a few weeks ago that I want to keep my healtlh insurance. I tried to talk to him once this week. But in my infinant wisdom, I was trying to do it while he was talking to the assistant manager and preparing to leave in five minutes. I find talking to him about something like hours scary. I feel almost as if I am a child talking to her father or something. My heart races and I end up opening mouth and inserting foot.
I have been trying to decide whether to look for work or not. If I get another job, I would probably end up with no health insurance for six months to a year (I'd miss T). I hate new jobs because I worry about getting fired for the first six months of the job.
But, the changes at work due to the new owners is making me feel like my life is out of control. No one seems to know what we are doing anymore. We have a new cash register and phones. New policies. They haven't taught me anything. The claimed reason is because I am "the only one that he trusts to " straighten the product on the shelfs. I can't seem to get it all straightened the way the new owners want it. I need help but the company has decided to make him cut hours. I know that if I wait people will start quitting. One co-worker has quite while another one will return to her home store for the school year in a few weeks. I think another one is probably looking for work while on vacation. However, I am not sure I want to wait. It makes me feel like I have no control over my life because they don't tell me what I'm working until the Thursday or Friday the week before. How can I have a life without knowing my schedule? I hate having to write down my requests off on a big calender where everyone can see it. I have already had one co-worker make a comment about how many appointments I have (all T appointments). She stopped herself from asking though. She just commented that she hoped I didn't have any medical problems. SHe probably thinks I do since I have complained about the possiblity of losing health insurance. I hope the two co-workers who know about my sleeping problem doesn't mention it to her. Since she knows about my crying problem, it wouldn't be good for her to be able to start adding it all together. Since I am returning to school next week, I am not sure I want to deal with work changes, returning to school for anther semester and looking for work. But maybe looking for work would give me sense of hope and something to do during that freetime that I would normally be working. I tried writing up a pros and con list which I will probably share with T next week. But, I haven't managed to find out how many weeks of being below thirty can I have before losing insurance. I tried to call today and ended up spending a couple of hours laying around. I need to stop laying around. It just makes me sleep worse. Well, I'm up too late. I better try to go to bed.

[EJ711]

Hopeful,

Talking to your manager about hours is a scarey thing.

Nothing like new owners to turn everything upside down.

I'm sorry everything seems so uncertain for you right now.

I will pray for God's direction and wisdom for you at this difficult time.

Please keep us posted.

Hugs,

EJ