[pacots]

I am so bad i really do not know what to do? Nothing at all means anything to me, i am so sick & tired of feeling this way. Everything to me is a big chore even showering. It's getting to the point where now it is affecting my physical symptoms. I go to see the doc on Tues but i do not want to be put in the hospital again this will be like my 10th time. I am so ashamed everyone there knows me so well & i do not think anyone ever went back that much.

[gracez]

Hi Pacots,

I wish you weren't feeling so low. I don't have any really good advice. Seems that I'm in a really similar place to you. I don't think there's a point to anything because I haven't experienced any joy or sense of accomplishment in anything in months. I've been in bed mostly the past 2 days and haven't eating. Eating is a chore, showering too, I completely agree.

Hang in there? There's got to be something. I'll be trying to hang in to, even though I'm not so sure why.

[Cheshire Grin]

Hi pacots,
I don't think the people who work at the hospital are judging you, and, if they are, they need a new job. Also, you are their "bread and butter," no? If it weren't for you (and me), they wouldn't have anybody to help.

I also don't feel like showering. No one seems to know how hard doing seemingly mundane, simple things, feel like they require so much effort.

[pacots]

I feel exactly the way you do. I am trying to hang in there but merely by a thread. I hope we can pull out of this somehow.

[bharani1008]

I'm so sorry you are feeling so badly. I understand the apathy that comes with depression. Maybe just take each chore one at a time. Say to yourself that all you ouhave to do is eat something, then you can go back to bed, or just take a shower. Take baby steps that don't overwhelm.
In the meantime my heart goes out to you and I do hope you feel better.

[Fuzzybear]

[shery53]

I know how you feel I am trying myself not to end up in the hospital again. My husband says he will do anything to keep me out. I feeel like you do that everything is a chore. Hope we both feel better soon.

[optimize990h]

Originally Posted by pacots

I am so bad i really do not know what to do? Nothing at all means anything to me, i am so sick & tired of feeling this way. Everything to me is a big chore even showering. It's getting to the point where now it is affecting my physical symptoms. I go to see the doc on Tues but i do not want to be put in the hospital again this will be like my 10th time. I am so ashamed everyone there knows me so well & i do not think anyone ever went back that much.

Wow, pacots. I didn't realize you became a member back Oct 2009!

I hope you can get something out of PC this year. I only write that because you're more anonymous here than some other places.

Hope you are doing better soon.

[gracez]

Hi Pacots, how are you doing today? I'd like to hear.

Please hang in with me.

The thread is very thin today.

I care