[Consumed84]

Hi all,

I am so low right now. My mind is foggy and *everything* is overwhelming. I am spending most of my time in bed. The sad part is that I WAS starting to recover from the huge amount of trauma heaped upon me by the family last year... or at least I thought I was. Maybe I never have started recovering in the first place. (?) I dunno.

This is definitely the lowest I've been since last summer. I will probably go to my psychiatrist, and he'll change up my meds. I'll go through side-effects and probably tell him the new stuff isn't working. And we'll go right back to the same drugs I've been using since age 17. *sigh* It feels so pointless. I will go see him though - don't get me wrong.

I am confused as to how I got this low. I was doing better than this. I know I was even a few weeks ago. It's unsettling because my memory is terrible and I have trouble remembering when this "new" low started.

Sorry for rambling!
Consumed

[lostinbooks]

I know it feels like an endless cycle. I hope you feel better soon.

[bharani1008]

I sooo relate. I hate it when my mind gets all fuzzy and I can't think straight. I'm so sorry you feel like that now. I'm glad to hear you have a psychiatrist treating you. Are you talking to someone regularly? Lots of people here say that it's really a good thing to do.
I know it's disheartening to fall down from a good place. It takes so much energy to get back up.
You are very brave and you are fighting the best you can.
I hope you feel the support you need here. Most of us have experienced what you are feeling and understand.
I hope you feel better soon.