[Arethusa]

I've been feeling so depressed this week. And I don't know if I can go on living any longer. The only thing that was stopping me was my boyfriend but now I'm starting to think that he would be better off without me. I love him so much and don't want to hurt him. I know he would be absolutely devastated if anything happened to me but I just don't know if I can do this anymore

[Heather11]

Originally Posted by Arethusa

I've been feeling so depressed this week. And I don't know if I can go on living any longer. The only thing that was stopping me was my boyfriend but now I'm starting to think that he would be better off without me. I love him so much and don't want to hurt him. I know he would be absolutely devastated if anything happened to me but I just don't know if I can do this anymore

Do you have a counselor you can contact immediately? Family or friends to speak with? Don't give up hope. Hold onto the love you have. I dont know what else to advise except to get professional help ASAP

[Arethusa]

Originally Posted by Heather11

Do you have a counselor you can contact immediately? Family or friends to speak with? Don't give up hope. Hold onto the love you have. I dont know what else to advise except to get professional help ASAP

No, I'm not seeing a therapist at the moment. I don't have any friends. And I don't talk to the family that I do have. I just have my boyfriend...

[bharani1008]

I'm so sorry you're feeling so sad. You say that you aren't seeing a therapist at the moment. Are you seeing any other dr? You may need medicine to help you manage your depression. I see you have posted almost 5,000 times. How did you do that in such a short time!? So you've read all the information about therapy and medication. Is there any reason you aren't seeing a professional? If you are feeling like this it's REALLY important to see and talk to someone. If you feel like your bf can't carry you call the help lines in your community. There is help available and it really works. You just need to be perserverant and understand that finding the right treatment can take time. Don't give up when there is hope. Try not to push your bf away. Talk to him and try to help him understand what is happening to you and that it's not his fault. It may help help him help you.
Call someone now. Please.
Post here as often as you want and we'll try to give you support also.

You've got to keep on trying! Giving up is not an option! Seek professional help immediately!

[Arethusa]

Sometimes I wonder what's the point in making it work when we're all going to die eventually anyway....

[guycastell]

Originally Posted by Arethusa

Sometimes I wonder what's the point in making it work when we're all going to die eventually anyway....

I'm crying as I type this. Right now I too, just want all this pain to stop, everything in my life is wrong, bad, useless and honestly death doesn't seem too bad a this point.