Sorry...felt like I had to delete this...I don't know what's wrong with me.

I don't know how to delete the thread....if I moderator would like to, that's fine with me.

[shortandcute]

LOTS of hugs to you!

[Rohag]

Hello, OPRMC. Take your time. Continue this or open a new thread when you are ready.

[tripcode]

I opened this because it said "Comparing myself to others", and I felt relieved, because I'm not the only one who does that...part of why I'm so sad these days is because I'm not as good as...well, everyone else...
In any event, I hope you're able to express what you need to, either here or in a new thread. Good luck!

Originally Posted by Rohag

Hello, OPRMC. Take your time. Continue this or open a new thread when you are ready.

Looks like I can't edit the original post anymore, but I'm beginning to think that the St John's Wort that I had been taking for over a month was actually helping a little bit even though I didn't think it was doing anything at all. I ran out a couple day ago and didn't take any yesterday and only one capsule the day before. I was *extremely* depressed last night...the most I had been in a really long time. And not for any real reason.

I barely have any money left, but I bought some more St John's Wort today and took it and have been feeling better today. Maybe it's placebo, or maybe it actually does work for some people and it's just not strong enough to really work for me, but still just provides a little relief. I'm not sure, but I'm beginning to think that it may be helping just enough to at least be stepping stone to getting help and maybe getting on some real antidepressants. I'm not sure if I would've even been able to reach out on this website 2 months ago, so maybe the little green capsules have been helping me to at least get a start in the right direction. I don't know.

[shortandcute]

I figure, if it helps, go for it--even if it is a placebo. Besides, it certainly wont hurt.

Originally Posted by tripcode

I opened this because it said "Comparing myself to others", and I felt relieved, because I'm not the only one who does that...part of why I'm so sad these days is because I'm not as good as...well, everyone else...
In any event, I hope you're able to express what you need to, either here or in a new thread. Good luck!

I feel you completely. In a way, it doesn't even matter that I deleted the original message. You probably could fill in your own details and it would be the same thing as mine. No matter how great people tell me I am...even if the praise is coming from people I admire and respect, it still doesn't fill the void. Any accomplishment I make will be qualified by the reason I feel I didn't deserve it or the reason it's not really much of an accomplishment after all.

Graduate from prestigious music school=Oh...the school sucked....the program was easy...they'll let anybody graduate.

Make living as a musician=Well...I'm only making a living playing dumb music I hate

Play to enormous audience=We weren't the headliner so it's meaningless

One of my favorite musicians on the planet compliments me=He's just being nice

Go for a walk while depressed=All you did was go for a walk...it's pathetic that you think that's an accomplishment

Lose 5 lbs=You'll just gain it back...and look how fat you still are

And on and on and on until I just don't want to even get out of bed.

So, when I see that another person is doing better than me, it just makes it all 10x worse.

[allme]

Originally Posted by OPRMC

I feel you completely. In a way, it doesn't even matter that I deleted the original message. You probably could fill in your own details and it would be the same thing as mine. No matter how great people tell me I am...even if the praise is coming from people I admire and respect, it still doesn't fill the void. Any accomplishment I make will be qualified by the reason I feel I didn't deserve it or the reason it's not really much of an accomplishment after all.

Graduate from prestigious music school=Oh...the school sucked....the program was easy...they'll let anybody graduate.

Make living as a musician=Well...I'm only making a living playing dumb music I hate

Play to enormous audience=We weren't the headliner so it's meaningless

One of my favorite musicians on the planet compliments me=He's just being nice

Go for a walk while depressed=All you did was go for a walk...it's pathetic that you think that's an accomplishment

Lose 5 lbs=You'll just gain it back...and look how fat you still are

And on and on and on until I just don't want to even get out of bed.

So, when I see that another person is doing better than me, it just makes it all 10x worse.

I do this ALL the time. But there will always be someone out there that has it better than you....just like there will always be someone is worse off. We have to some how accept our lot and try to appreciate what it is that is good about ourselves and our lives. I know it isn't easy when feeling down about ourselves but we must try and see what it is we have. Now take all those statements you just wrote, and try your best to list something positive, no matter how small, just list it. If you can't do it now, try tomorrow.

It is easy to see the bad in our lives and see our faults when comparing ourselves to others. The art of seeing the positive is a rewarding one. Try never to look to anyone nor look down. Just be.

[BumbleHero]

Originally Posted by OPRMC

Sorry...felt like I had to delete this...I don't know what's wrong with me.

I don't know how to delete the thread....if I moderator would like to, that's fine with me.

There is nothing wrong with you and you don't need to be sorry.

[Boater]

Many of us compare ourselves to others and fall short of the imagined mark. Perhaps we need to build on what we ARE good at so that we can feel better about the rest.
Some things are more challenging to master than others