[pamelasu]

I was having a good day. Then I went to my drawing class. That class is so long and I get so irritated with drawing in the classroom. I mean I can work on my project in my room and get more done than I can in class in the same amount of time even. I can't stand having people looking over my shoulders every five minutes to make sure I am making the right lines and drawing the right shapes of light. It's frustrating. Any way, I go to class and everything is fine while I am in class. I get out of class and I'm feeling so irritated and so frustrated that I can't stand to be around myself. I got after my little sister today because I was just so irritated. I wish that I was feeling better. It's a good thing that class got cancled for thrusday. I wouldn't make it any way.

[sammi]

(((((hugs)))))))

don't let one class wreck your day. I understand though what you mean. It makes me nervous and kind of anxious when somebody is looking over my shoulder every other minute. As for getting after your little sister maybe just apoligize and give her hug.

[cappuccinogirl65]

Your drawing class sounds like my therapy appointment yesterday. I felt better going in than I did coming out....and then I had to pay money!!! <Sigh>the wonderful irritants of depression. I'm trying to enjoy the anxiety while I can cause when I get on the right meds and get leveled off, bye bye anxiety. I just kinda "flow" with the anxiety just to get through it...Zen kinda stuff...may sound weird. I'm sorry you had a bad day ....hugs. Just remember, somewhere else, someone is having a worse day than yours!!..works for me anyway.

[pamelasu]

I feel like I'm in therapy sometimes when I go to my drawing class. It's just like therapy in a way. When I was younger I use to put all my energy and anger into drawings and into writing. Now that I'm going to therapy and I haven't done much drawing for the last few years, it feels like my feelings are just getting all stired up inside of me just like it does with therapy. I don't like feeling this way.

[JustAPixie]

((((((((((((( pamelasu )))))))))))))

It's funny how our bad moods makes us more creative. I was like that with my writing, but I realised that it is because I usually focus on the negative... I was so used to negative thoughts and emotions that I couldn't write about positive ones. When it's going good I can't think of things to write because I don't see the good stuff!