[spondiferous]

I don't really know where else to put this. I am just so done. Yesterday I had a breakdown while out with my partner and all my stuff started coming up again: dissociation, panic, the feeling of being trapped, can't get home fast enough. My agoraphobic and OCD symptoms have been worsening again. My depression's been getting worse. My BPD's been acting up for about the last month and a half or so. I feel like everything I do I fail at. And I don't know what to do anymore because I've spent the last four years doing therapy groups, clinics, experimental research, psychiatry and counselling, and recovery groups and self-help support groups and I'm here. No better. There are really no words to describe how I feel right now.

[H3rmit]

Originally Posted by spondiferous

I feel like everything I do I fail at. And I don't know what to do anymore ....

All I can say is I know how you feel, and I feel that way a lot. So much struggle, so little sense of success. So much pain.

[gayleggg]

Sorry you had such an awful day. I agree with H3rmit. I think she said it all.
Gayle

[Fuzzybear]

((((((( spondiferous )))))))
just want to let you know I care

[bharani1008]

I'm so sorry you are struggling so hard. At least know that I honor you for attempting so many avenues and taking responsibility for your illness. Please also remember that you are suffering from a disease and failure can't be defined the same for people without our handicaps. For us, living and fighting everyday is our success. Being willing to live another day is an act of heroism.
I send good wishes to you you