[kittykat]

Hi
New to this board. Been depressed for so long I don't know what normal is. I was in the hospital 3 or 4 times last year and meds did not help me. However, I did get some of my housing straightened out and that was one less stressor for me. I stopped taking meds altogether and now I have started back on Serzone, low doses, which I had in the past which worked well but started having visual problems when the stress increased and the dose increased.

Forgive me for being disjointed about the way I am posting. When I am "normal" my mind is pretty sharp and I can concentrate well.

Anyway, is there a place you can post about spirituality? It seemed I was doing pretty well with my faith and then things seemed to go from bad to worse. So my faith is not too strong right now. There is a church, nondenominaal, Unity out of Kansas City with churches all over the US and the world. They teach positiveness and the love of God and His will for you is good. They are pretty good at giving your inspiration. Such as "Major change takes time. Do not be surprised by setbacks." I found this very encouraging but the depression has gotten so bad and painful I feel totally immobilized and my faith has taken a nosedive.

I have been taking my meds for a little over a week now (I know it takes 4-6 weeks to get effect) but I have had some moments where, since taking them, I feel "normal" and capable of being a human being. The feelings I get from this is that my brain chemistry is somehow messed up, and that the normal feelings I get from the meds makes me feel it is definitely a chemistry problem in the brain.

I really like your board, there are a lot of warm and very intelligent people here. So would really like to hear from you.

[krzyk101]

Welcome

I am glad you are here and hope you get to feeling better. I have taken Serzone in the past and it worked for a while. I may be wrong, but has your doctor said any thing about Blood tests for your liver while on Serzone? I heard something about having Liver function tests with this drug.

As far as religion goes, as ozzie said, we really do not discuss it. It has caused some mixed feelings, triggers, and anger. As not everyone is of the same religion or beliefs.

Take Care and Best wishes,

KRIS

"I'm Not Crazy I'm Just a Little Unwell"

If you think you have totally gave up, you haven't, because you are here!

[kittykat]

Hi KK

Yes, I did see some information on the internet about liver failure. I see it has been banned in Canada. I have a new doctor and she had not mentioned LFTs so I am going to ask her about getting them when I see her Friday. Appreciate your concern. With all the new meds coming out you really have to be well informed, so that's why I search all the information I can find about drugs.

Thanks again.

[SundaysChild]

KittyKat, depression and anxiety are for sure a chemical imbalance in your brain. It's a fact.

Make sure you mention to your doctor about the visual distortions. That's why I quit taking Serzone. Another very important aspect is to have your liver function checked, just like Kris said.




"It's not what you gather, but what you scatter that tells what kind of life you have lived."

There is an enormous site on religion and spirituality called www.belief.net you might want to look at. I don't know much about it, but I'm pretty sure it has posting boards. Emmy

"If you want others to be happy, practice compassion. If you want to be happy, practice compassion." -- The Dalai Lama