[Lost in this world]

I'm frustrated and annoyed and sad at the same time. My day was going good until my grandma snapped at me and I ran into my apt crying about it all and my great aunt comes up the stairs and talking to me telling me to stop crying and go have lunch I tell her I'm not having a good day and My day isn't going well. She says put your big girl panties on and stop crying and come for lunch.

She barley listens to what i have to say. She made me feel miserable that yesterday I didn't help mow the lawn because I was a sleep because I worked all night and they changed the time to mow. It's hurts that she blames a lot on me.

Trying so hard to do things right and when I mess up I feel worse. I blame a lot of things on myself but I don't need her to blame me for other things. She doesn't know much about depression she thinks I can make myself happy but I can't. she made me cry harder and tells me to stop crying.

This week has been really down. Now I don't even want to see her. My fear is of people's opinions about it and how they don't get that depression follows you every where. I cried all afternoon. I felt really down. I'll I talk about is disappearing but if I run away its just going to follow me . Emailed my doctor telling her I want either new meds or a higher dose. Feel like screaming and wanting to give up. I totally wish I could be that happy so quick but I can't . I hate depression

[gayleggg]

I'm sorry your great aunt doesn't understand. I'm afraid she is from a different generation and they had to just suck it up. There was no options other than that. It is hard for anyone that is not going through it to understand what it feels like. I understand what you are going through. I want to give up, but for some reason I keep going. Meds don't seem to work, leaving me with the feeling that the depression is all that there is and that there is know way out. I agree with you; I hate depression, too. Hope you get some relief from what you doctor decides to do.
Gayle

[Rohag]

Originally Posted by Lost in this world

Feel like screaming and wanting to give up. I totally wish I could be that happy so quick but I can't . I hate depression

Me too.

Being depressed, you really need that sleep. Guard your sleeping time as best you can.

[Lost in this world]

Thanks i just think that she doesnt know much about it. She doesnt know the struggle to try to get over it!

[bharani1008]

It's really hard for anyone who hasn't experienced it to understand depression. I live around well educated, aware people and even though they think they a empathetic, I can see that fleeting frustrated, impatient look that crosses their face if I even mention my experience. In my experience PC is the only place I've found to be genuinely understanding. But you know that already, don't you?
I hope you are feeling better about your medication. I plan to stay on mine as long as it takes. I have a terminal illness. It's called depression and anxiety. With the last bout I just about checked out. I couldn't take the intense fear and self loathing. With the right meds I can function pretty well. Try to really get that you have a real, legitimate disease and medication can be part of getting well. I've never had access to therapy but people around here highly recommend it. Some of these people have been coping with depression for decades. They are veterans. You can take their advice.
Do whatever it takes to be happy. You deserve it.

[Lost in this world]

I tried thearpy and quit when i thought i was getting better but now i think i should have stayed and not quit. Now i think it is getting worse.

[online user]

Can you go back to therapy? I always think it helps a bit, although I'm pretty stable and not going now. My T. quit--moved away, out-of-state, and I just didn't find another. But if I ere down in the dumps all the time I think I would. I do take my meds religiously.

[Lost in this world]

Ya I think I might. Just waiting first to get my meds changed.