[Shandar]

I recently started seeing a t and am now regretting letting him into my realm. Before seeing him I knew I had an anxiety problem and excessive rage. Now he says I am bipolar and depressed. My PCP originally had said he would help me as best he could. But when I asked him to call my t and discuss drugs because the t wants me medicated, he hesitated and does not want to assist with medications. I know it is because he is a PCP and not a psychiatrist but his rejection has thrown me into a complete downward spiral. He has me on Lexapro and this morning I couldn't bring myself to take it. I am self destructing.

The t was rather assertive during our second session with respect to my seeing a psychiatrist. He actually told me he was disappointed because I did not call one of his references. I am not ready to open up to a third person. I reached out to my PCP and the t. Now knowing that I have to talk to a third person also has me spinning. The t has pushed me to where I am not ready to go. And the PCP I thought would be able to help me cannot.

My husband called several psychiatrists for me yesterday to try and find one and the earliest I can get in is a month from now. I know that should be acceptable to me but I feel so rejected there too.

After my second t session I am feeling so depressed. I want to not go back. I regret telling anyone anything and just want to withdraw.

[ThisWayOut]

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[online user]

If you are truly bipolar, there are meds that will definitely help you and that is probably why the t. wants you to see a psychiatrist. For you, to take the best care of you. From my experience, pdocs don't deal with you in the detail that a t. would. You can talk in more generalities and summaies--it's not therapy, it's just assessing you for a diagnosis and prescribing medicine. After the initial consultation, appointments with a pdoc are normally about 15 minutes. It may not be as bad as you are fearing and it really may help. Also, all of these people are bound by their ethics not to discuss your particulars with anyone else so your "realm" goes to them and what you have told them and no further.

I'm glad you have the appointment with the proper person to prescribe for you. I hope you can accept this and go through with it. It will ultimately result in you feeling much, much better I think.

While I am depressive, I have three in my family who are bipolar and we all need our pdocs and our meds. To quote Martha Stewart, "it's a good thing".

[kaliope]

getting your mental health sorted out on the onset can be really overwhelming. as online user said, pdoc is strictly for your meds, t is for therapy. your pcp generally does not want to get involved with psych meds because it is a specialty that most don't know too much about. getting into a pdoc in a month is pretty good actually. it takes longer than that in this area. pdocs can be hard to come by so I wouldn't feel rejected. once you get it all set up it will be smooth sailing though. you will see your t for counseling and pdoc for meds. I see pdoc every three months is all, just long enough to tell her how I am doing and pick up my prescription and then I see my therapist every two weeks. its a pretty easy process. so worry not, it will be for you as well.

[Fuzzybear]

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[tealBumblebee]

I'm sorry you're feeling this way. The only thing I would suggest is asking T to be a little more gentle with you in approaching this situation, because this is truly a big step for you. And not all big steps can be taken on a whim Here, take this, I hope it helps