[WorkInProgress16]

surviving anymore. I use to use my boyfriend as a reason to survive. To live and try my best to be stable, but now he's gone and I'm having a hard time finding a new reason.

[kaliope]

I hear you saying you feel like you cant come up with a reason to go on now that your boyfriend is gone. this is why it is difficult to live life for another person because you never know if you can count on them. making yourself important is the key. creating a stable life for yourself will lead to happiness without having to rely on another. take care.

[writlov14]

I understand where you're coming from. When I was in my previous relationship, I felt that way too. Although, my circumstance may be different, as he was abusive. Despite that, I felt that I couldn't live without him and that he was reason for living. I thought I loved him (I realized later on that I didn't, I was just afraid of being alone and it was more fear than love). When he left, I felt like I had no reason to live. But I moved on with my life, met someone I truly do love and hope to marry, and I did my best to make something of my life, other than being someone's girlfriend.

I don't know exactly what you're going through right now, but just know that you do have a reason for living. Sometimes it just takes time to figure out what your purpose is. From your profile, you're rather young, so you have plenty of time. I always hated hearing that, and I still do hate hearing it myself, but it's so true.

There were so many times before that I had planned on ending everything, and I look back now and I'm so glad that I didn't, and that people stopped me. Good things, very good things, have happened in my life since. I never thought those things would happen for me, because it feels impossible to see past your own depression, to see things getting better, to see yourself feeling good again. And waiting and fighting is so hard, but you have to if you want to find your purpose and your reason. Trust me, when you do, it's a great feeling...one that you don't want to miss.