[adampeps]

Hi all,
I wrote a thread on this the other day ( ), but felt the title was a bit off and might be able to get more advice now.

I ended up getting depressed after coming home from my wedding September 2011. I denied having depression, and figured things would go away. But after not being able to stop crying, missing all the people we left behind to go home, getting back to normal, etc was a huge problem. I couldn't eat, was sad all the time, couldn’t work, had to be around my family all the time. It was terrible. After finally going to the doctor, taking medication (Zoloft), I finally started to get better.

All of 2012 was fine, I experienced some issues like anxiety over a new neighbor who had a barking dog that I couldn't stand. I eventually talked to them and was still anxious and nervous after, but things eventually subsided.

In March 2013, my wife and I had our first baby. Life was going great, I had no depression. This continued for 5.5 months. I loved being a father, was so proud of my little girl and although our life changed, I felt good and not sad. Just normal tired.

During this period, I had been coming off my medication, and I believe I was fully off a couple of months ago. Two weekends ago, we had my sister’s wedding. We had a great time showing off our baby, dressing her up and then coming back to enjoy the party after we brought her home. My wife and I had an amazing night. Then Sunday I woke up feeling crappy (thought it was hangover). But the sadness did not go away.

Originally we had thought at my own wedding that being the center of attention having people care about me was what caused me to have these issues. I am normally a quiet guy, not very social, etc. But I really had nothing to do with my sister’s wedding and still came away after being depressed and feeling unmotivated to do anything. Life was not the same, crying, and not being able to eat.

Is this just because I came off my medication? To me I would have expected I’d have this happen to me sooner when I came off the medication. What is it with these types of events that cause me to spiral?

Any thoughts would be a huge help.
Thanks!

[Rohag]

Originally Posted by adampeps

What is it with these types of events that cause me to spiral?

This is puzzling. Is it only weddings that do this? Have you experienced anything even faintly similar with any other events? What about food, drink, activities that happen at the wedding and nowhere else?

[adampeps]

It's puzzling to you and me both. The first time I went through this after my own we all thought it was because I really loved the attention. I'm normally a very quiet guy and don't have many close friends (my Dad was my best man). Coming home from the wedding (10 hour drive - wife's home), I think I cried three times about how I didn't want to go back to normal life. Didn't want to face some anxiety issues from a certain neighbor at home, etc. After a few weeks of this I went to the doctor, was diagnosed with depression, and began the tough road to recovery.

For a year and a half I had been doing great. Although still not many friends, we'd hang out with neighbors, I had work I enjoyed doing, everything was fine. We even had a baby this past March. I think a couple months ago after weaning off for a while, I was done with my medication.

I wasn't stressed before my sisters wedding. I was more looking forward to showing of my daughter to family. I was a bit worried as we'd be throwing her off her regular schedule, but we figured we'd make it work. We did the rehearsal friday, felt fine leaving it. We did the wedding saturday, came home feeling fine, went to the reception had a great time with all familiy and her friends. My wife and I drove home and felt great. The next couple of days I just felt more and more down. No close friends, nothing to look forward too, etc.

I really struggled with what I was going to do now and fear weekends. Before this I loved weekends. We'd do our regular chores, go for walks, goto the mall with our daughter, groceries, etc. Just normal stuff. But now everything felt boring and useless compared to what we just went through. I know I felt the same way after my wedding as well.

Hope that helps, this stuff bothers the heck out of me.

[Rohag]

Quick thought: Though stress is normally associated with unpleasant, threatening things, stress can also accompany positive, exciting experiences (excitement stress?) and then the stress of returning to routine. You may be or have become particularly sensitive to these other kinds of stresses.

[adampeps]

Thank you, perhaps that is the case. I don't really know? Is this called something? I couldn't find much on google.

I do know that I had an amazing stress free time, other than worrying about my daughter when she got scared of loud music and had to take her home. But we came back after the dropping her off with the baby sitter and had a great time. I would have never thought i'd break down like this in a million years.

I'm on Zoloft now (75 mg past 2 days, previously 50 mg approx 5 days) and am wondering if I am feeling more anxiousness largely due to the medication. Before I was more depressed and feel like I had nothing to look forward to anymore. Now i'm anxious at work, nervous stomach in the morning, etc. I still feel sad and unmotivated to do things, but not as much as a week and a half ago.

[gayleggg]

I would give the medication more time to work on your symptoms. Since you have just started taking it again, it may take a few weeks to start to work. Then see if you are still having anxiety issues and talk to your doctor about the symptoms.

[adampeps]

Ya I plan to keep on it. Just so hard. I felt sad before, but now it's kind of a sad and anxiousness. Hopefully it tapers off soon, this is painful.

Is it normal that it is really bad in the morning, but not so much in the afternoon/night. I take my pills around 9 AM if that helps.

Thanks!