[unfuntionablytired]

Just a little further self insight. The past few years ive turned myself it a sort of social stigma. Its not that i was being rejected,although i perceived it that way, but its that i was rejecting "society" i guess you could call it. i was disgusted by my peers and their seemingly blind direction.I still am to be honest. But my dissatisfaction with the way things were going and everyone was heading caused me to reserve myself from all typical teen experiences. Highschool, getting a boyfriend, social media, dances and events. i shunned all of it because it just looked so stupid to me , and once again, still does. But then i find myself alone and complaining about never doing anything while im the only one pushing myself into that life. People try to reach me on a shallow level, but i just push them away. Im only going to be a teenager for so much longer and when i grow up and look back, wont i be disappointed even if from the pit of my existence i truly dislike what the norm is for my age? Should i take 100 pictures of myself and explode facebook and fake myself to a stupor of constant self reference? i dont know. My dad thinks i should. I just have such a hard time. I reconnected with old friends that saw things the way i do , and they are doing what im still unsure whether or should do or not, and they seem pretty satisfied. yet im still discontented with the superficiality they had to produce in order to get there so... is it worth it? Is it worth forcing myself to secrete a natural approachable persona to end my loneliness? Or is it worth it to be real but alone and reserved. all i keep hearing when i ask this is, faking is a part of life, but thats not a life i want to be part of. yet the life of solitude im living now isnt one i want to be part of either. Im at a crossroads.

[Miss_M]

You don't need to fake liking pop-culture if you don't. Maybe try looking into some clubs or groups that have interests you share? Do you like games, or history, or cooking? Maybe a sport? It might help to look for people who also enjoy the things you like rather than trying to pretend you like what 'most' people do.
Superficial 'normal' teenager behavior was never my thing either. Pretending it is won't make you any happier, trust me.