[omega5]

I almost went to psych ward today. I have been there in the past, 3 years ago... the feeling u got nowhere to go... old traumas on the surface. i'd stay here but there are too much noises during the day in this apartment where i moved two months ago, those noises drive me crazy (renovation noises). I didn't go to psych ward tho, because all I need is a warm place where i could stay and someone who understands. i feel everything is so ugly here,
dirty and ugly and dark grey. and parents do want to help but all they can do is give me material support - it is important but certainly isn't a substitute. i feel i want to go far from my parents. they got me this apartment and i regret so much i ever came here. i regret everything i just wish there were a place to go. countryside would be the best, i so long for nature. i hate this city living in a plastic box. please if someone has any ideas where to go would appreciate. being in touch with parents makes me sick. i feel there' sso much lack of understanding...

I know that having to go through each day in an environment you don't like etc. is horrendous. But you really need to take care of yourself, especially if you are on your own....

I'm not sure what your situation is but I think the best might be to be open with your parents - i.e. tell them you are not happy in this appartment and want to move (as you say they are happy to help financially). Or maybe get a job and move someplace else. It might also be best just to tell your parents what it is you need - emotional support, understanding etc.

Do you have anyone else you can talk to - friend, other relative, counsellor to understand and/or guide?

[JustAPixie]

((((((((( omega5 ))))))))

[(JD)]

(((omega)))) I think the depression makes us unhappy with where we currently are... I often think of "driving north" just to get out of the place I am in...but of course, I would still be there. I would only be moving away from the support I do have here. See?

Try and treat the sadness, find someone to talk with who can help you, and never make any major decisions while depressed. TC!