[Veesnothing28]

Hi guys, I am a new member and I came here complaining about my depression and other mental illnesses. I guess I was looking for help, support, anything, from anyone. But, my heart is telling me that I do not have the right to reach out to others. My heart is telling me that I am not worth it. So, I quit. I just give up. Something you all don't know about me is that I have been in this same downward spiral for approximately 6 1/2 years! You'd think by now that there'd be some improvement with me, but there hasn't been. To me, this suggests that I am just not capable of helping myself, and that things are too deep to, for lack of a better word, fix. I know that someone day soon, I will be at rest, and all of this chaos/craziness I'm dealing will b completely foreign to me. But, in the meantime, I don't want to continue wasting anyone's time. I'm sorry, and thank you to the two people who responded to my previous post. I appreciate it.

[pegasus]

Hugs ((((( Veesnothing28 ))))) Depression tells us all sorts of terrible things. Keep sharing here, it helps.

[A Red Panda]

This community is all about reaching out and getting some love and support from others. You're not worthless, and you've got as much a right as anyone to be here posting and reading.

I'm sorry that the depression's been dragging you down for such a long stretch.

Originally Posted by Veesnothing28

Hi guys, I am a new member and I came here complaining about my depression and other mental illnesses. I guess I was looking for help, support, anything, from anyone. But, my heart is telling me that I do not have the right to reach out to others. My heart is telling me that I am not worth it. So, I quit. I just give up. Something you all don't know about me is that I have been in this same downward spiral for approximately 6 1/2 years! You'd think by now that there'd be some improvement with me, but there hasn't been. To me, this suggests that I am just not capable of helping myself, and that things are too deep to, for lack of a better word, fix. I know that someone day soon, I will be at rest, and all of this chaos/craziness I'm dealing will b completely foreign to me. But, in the meantime, I don't want to continue wasting anyone's time. I'm sorry, and thank you to the two people who responded to my previous post. I appreciate it.

I feel the same way...like I'm not depressed enough to post here or that others have better reasons for being depressed than I do or that I'm never going to get better so I shouldn't waste people's time, but I have posted things here for no apparent reason other than to just not have to keep everything to myself anymore, and I feel like it has helped. I don't think anything I post is helping others or even worth reading, but nobody has told me to stop or told me I'm annoying them or that I don't belong here, so I'm going to continue. If posting anything here helps you feel even a little bit better, I hope you continue. There isn't a single person in my life I feel comfortable talking about anything serious with or feel like I could tell my problems to without being judged. Feeling like I can write anything here is such a relief. Keep posting if it helps

[LadyShadow]

I urge you to keep posting. You are not wasting anyone's time at all. That's what PC is for. Getting out your emotions and getting the support you need.

Hugs.

[themonster7]

Please don't give up. Never give up. Surrender just makes everything so much worse. If you were wasting anybody's time then we wouldn't be responding to you.

[Pierro]

Yes absolutely, please dont give up. Keep posting. You are not wasting anybodys time. We are here if you ever fel like talking,

[Miss_M]

What they said. You're not wasting our time, and this place is here for you to reach out to. We want to help you just like people are helping us. Don't give up on yourself. You're not beyond hope, and you can find your way out of the dark place you're in now. There's no need to turn away the helping hands that are offered. We wouldn't offer them if we didn't want to help.

[Jolisse]

We are here to listen and help as much as we can. That is never a waste of time!!

[atomicc]

I feel that way a lot too, like no one really wants to listen to me whine. I don't even have a reason to. But that's just maladaptive thinking telling us these things. You should continue to post because I can assure you it is very rewarding not only to express yourself, but also offer up support for others.

[Skywoulf]

Originally Posted by atomicc

I feel that way a lot too, like no one really wants to listen to me whine. I don't even have a reason to. But that's just maladaptive thinking telling us these things. You should continue to post because I can assure you it is very rewarding not only to express yourself, but also offer up support for others.

I would like to listen to you whine, because if I am focused on listening to what you say, then I don't have to look or feel myself. yes it is escapism but it does pass a few minutes/hours.

something to think about