[cailin caillte]

Whenever I talk to a friend and we a have deep or meaningful conversation, or a DMC as some people call it, well sometimes I might let it slip and say how depressed I feel most of the time. But the thing is that they always say back , yeah I know how you feel or I'm the exact same.
Now I know I'm wrong in saying or even thinking this because you never can surely know how people feel about things, but whenever people say they know how I feel, well I just want to scream and shout 'no you don't!' now I wouldn't shout it at my friends like that or anyone else but that's how it feels.
How could you possibly know what it's like to come home everyday wanting to go to sleep and not wake up in the morning. You have no idea what it's like to feel this depreased about nothing! This sounds twisted but I wish I had something to be depressed about because when you feel so down about nothing in particular well it just makes it worse.
Depression is like an excruciating pain. But how can it hurt so much when its virtually nonexistent? It's works its way through your body like a poison until you're left hollow on the inside. So please don't say to me that you know how it feels, even though it's ments in good faith. You really have no idea.

[RaisinGirl]

Hi there. I know exactly how you feel. It feels almost insulting to hear someone compare their feelings about a typical bad day to my serious depression. You just want to say, "Take how you feel and multiply it by 10 and you'll know how I feel even when it looks like things are going fine." I've learned that people's pain is so personal that no one can truly know how anyone else feels without walking a mile in their shoes. I don't even try to explain my depression to anyone who isn't my therapist or mother at this point. No one else even comes close to getting it.

[Rohag]

Hello & Welcome, cailin caillte.
When did it begin?

[cailin caillte]

Originally Posted by Rohag

Hello & Welcome, cailin caillte.
When did it begin?

Thank you! For the past three years I've had highs and lows but it was only during the summer past that I noticed it was really bad to be honest.

[Rohag]

A couple of non-professional thoughts...

Something unseen has been stressing your system for several years and in the past few months has overcome your natural abilities to dissipate the stress. This unseen stressor (or combination) may be brain or body chemistry, possibly associated with aging or an untreated medical condition.

You've probably heard about SAD - Seasonal Affective Disorder where people develop depression symptoms during the autumn-winter months. A small percentage of people suffer from Summer SAD. (New York Times: Seasonal Depression Can Accompany Summer Sun, 2002)

Cailin caillte, could you get a full medical check?

I can not see the wind, but I know it is real.

WELCOME (since I don't think I have seen you before - but I am new so....)

I have seen my chart.... and it lists severe clinic depression as one of my issues. So, I think I can relate. I am not saying I know *exactly* what you feel or even that yours is the same as mine. But I get it.

Personally - I find that sometimes it does hurt. And sometimes (probably more than not) it is simply numb. I do not feel anything. Just dead inside.

Either way.... hang in there.

[catsrhelm]

Also some people confuse chemical depression with situational depression. Situational depression can resolve itself once the situation changes. With chemical, the only way that resolves is with proper medication. The folks without chemical depression can never understand what it's like.

[cailin caillte]

Originally Posted by Rohag

A couple of non-professional thoughts...
Cailin caillte, could you get a full medical check?

I would but Im not able to talk to anyone about this. But I know your suppose to. Im kinda in a state where I cant do anything to get out of this depression. I've heard of people describing others as being 'stuck in a fog of depression', I never thought it would apply to me but its probably the best way to describe how I feel. But thank you for you thoughts. It helps to know some people understand.

[ForeverOutcast]

I don't think any one can truly understands some ones depression. For every one it's different (or at lease how I see it) and can't just be easily explained to some one. For most people they don't even know why they're depressed.
No one can really understand how I feel and I don't expect them to ether. I cant even understand my own depression. I do really dislike it when people try to say they understand though. I know their just trying to be nice but after hearing it so many times it makes my head want to explode. I also always get the "Your not depressed" thing from every one. I think that one's even worse.

[Pierro]

No one knows how another person feels but, all our symptoms overlap in some way. Welcome and Best Wishes to you.

funny thing about that fog...... it blows out as fast as it blows in sometimes....

Hang in there!

[Alexa19]

Originally Posted by catsrhelm

Also some people confuse chemical depression with situational depression. Situational depression can resolve itself once the situation changes. With chemical, the only way that resolves is with proper medication. The folks without chemical depression can never understand what it's like.

Until now no doctor in the world has a tool to prove whether depression is chemical or situational...

[Alexa19]

Originally Posted by cailin caillte

Whenever I talk to a friend and we a have deep or meaningful conversation, or a DMC as some people call it, well sometimes I might let it slip and say how depressed I feel most of the time. But the thing is that they always say back , yeah I know how you feel or I'm the exact same.
Now I know I'm wrong in saying or even thinking this because you never can surely know how people feel about things, but whenever people say they know how I feel, well I just want to scream and shout 'no you don't!' now I wouldn't shout it at my friends like that or anyone else but that's how it feels.
How could you possibly know what it's like to come home everyday wanting to go to sleep and not wake up in the morning. You have no idea what it's like to feel this depreased about nothing! This sounds twisted but I wish I had something to be depressed about because when you feel so down about nothing in particular well it just makes it worse.
Depression is like an excruciating pain. But how can it hurt so much when its virtually nonexistent? It's works its way through your body like a poison until you're left hollow on the inside. So please don't say to me that you know how it feels, even though it's ments in good faith. You really have no idea.

No one can truly understand you, unless they had a real major depressive episode themselves....my longest lasted for 18 months.
The agony, the emotional pain, the despair, the "i cannot see anything in the future and have nothing to hold on to" feeling....It was awful.
But it is over.
I could not believe when it ended and i landed a big promotion and a new job and started feeling excited again.
Do you see a psychiatrist?

[Patsy Cline]

Cailin, be sure that you'll find people here that really DO know how you feel. And you can vent and exchange thoughts with us.

Remember that even though it's annoying when people with trivial issues (at least, they're trivial issues to us) are trying to understand. They're doing their best.

I definitely understand feeling so sad, distraught and hopeless that living seems unbearable. Not knowing why I wake up like this, with no warning, is the worst! But those moments pass and things do get better again.