[RaisinGirl]

Hi, everyone. I'm just here to vent for a moment. I can feel myself slipping further and further into depression. I take Wellbutrin everyday, but I can sense that it's time to head to the doctor to be reassessed. I'm increasingly impatient with my daughter, I'm hurt badly by minor slights, I'm slacking a bit in school, I'm driving a bit more recklessly, and my work is slipping. Why is it so hard to just accept reality and head to the doctor when I know I need to?! This is not my first rodeo. I know what needs to be done.

I've been through far too much in my 36 years. I'm lonely, but I shy away from companionship. I desperately want to lose weight and regain my life and freedom (I am extremely overweight- more than you could guess), but I continue to binge eat. I feel utterly worthless.

Thanks for listening. It means a lot just to be able to post here and vent, regardless of any responses.

[Alexa19]

Originally Posted by RaisinGirl

Hi, everyone. I'm just here to vent for a moment. I can feel myself slipping further and further into depression. I take Wellbutrin everyday, but I can sense that it's time to head to the doctor to be reassessed. I'm increasingly impatient with my daughter, I'm hurt badly by minor slights, I'm slacking a bit in school, I'm driving a bit more recklessly, and my work is slipping. Why is it so hard to just accept reality and head to the doctor when I know I need to?! This is not my first rodeo. I know what needs to be done.

I've been through far too much in my 36 years. I'm lonely, but I shy away from companionship. I desperately want to lose weight and regain my life and freedom (I am extremely overweight- more than you could guess), but I continue to binge eat. I feel utterly worthless.

Thanks for listening. It means a lot just to be able to post here and vent, regardless of any responses.

Honey you can do it!!
It is difficult and by the way i am 32 but my life was not easy and mostly a struggle...
I also had emotional eating problem when i was depressed.
Twice i lost 17 kilos!
You can do it too!
I am lazy and have horrible self control issues so if i could do it, you can, too!
But first you have to find a nice doctor.
Are you on any medication apart from Wellbutrin? Have you ever changed meds?
I was on it and switched since it did not help.
Also, some people say it actually increases the appetite and not the other way around!

You are NOT worthless!
You are raising a child, managing to study and want to get better!
HUGS

[shortandcute]

Sometimes, depression can affect us in those ways. And sometimes, it gets a little tiring just to deal with it.

[themonster7]

You're not the one struggling to accept reality. I would go as far as to say the majority of people on this forum cannot accept the true reality. We don't see things as they really are, we see things as our depression tells us to see them. I hope start to understand your worth soon..

[Sadley]

I struggle with these issues myself. I'm a 23 year old male. I don't accept my reality at all because I don't want to. So I play video games all the time and pretend I'm in a fantasy world instead of my own crappy life. It's what I've been raised to do, it's what I've been doing since before I learned how to read.

I also take Wellbutrin every day and have been doing so for like 9 months now... I've tried so many other meds too and you might want to ask about getting a genetic test because that's what my psychiatrist is recommending for me. They can test you to see if there are any meds that will work for you.

I am very shy and it is a total nightmare for me. I don't want to be this way, I long for a relationship with someone, but I can't seem to connect with anyone...feel very distant from anyone and anything. A horrible lonely feeling like being in hell.

I binge eat all the time too. I'm not sure if my meds contributed to my appetite or not, though.

I'm not to content knowing I'll probably be in therapy the rest of my life...

[Mr Wispers]

It's getting back to what you know you need to do is a real challenge. Don't beat your self up. I know easier said than done but you need to be nicer to your self first. You can do it sister. :-) Even if you can think/say one nice thing to your self it will be a good start. Take it from a 42yrold that's on more than one anti depressants. I hope this helps in anyway.