[Sterella]

Apparently, the reason my parents want me to stick around on this lovely world is because if I don't it would be very expensive.

That is what they think. I only very recently told them about my depression and my SH (because they never cared to notice for 7 years), and when my parents heard me crying in my room, they came in to consul. And, well, my Dad and Mom both agreed that the main reason I shouldn't take my own life is because funeral costs are expensive.

I don't think I've ever felt more unloved in my entire life.

I know they aren't emotional people, but really? You couldn't say "we'd miss you"?
No, its just "funeral costs are so high, and you wouldn't want to leave us with that debt, would you?"

Why can't they ever love me?

[winter4me]

I am without words...
I wonder if they really know what they did...(I have this crazy picture of them thinking they were cheering you up with humor that is so inappropriate it is scary...but if it is that it could be fragile and you might break the spell with crying out the question you have asked here "WHY CAN'T YOU EVER LOVE ME??????????????????"----}if they were serious...you need another adult for support, they are not capable.

[ToeJam]

I'm so very very sorry... and I don't mean to sound insensitive (I will get onto my main message in a moment) but I snorted coffee out of my nose when I read that.

I agree with Winter4me that they could very well have been trying to use humor and that actually sounds like something my dad would have said... quite dead pan. They sound British as that is the kind of dark humor you get over here.

I'm sure they do care about you... they came in to console you after all. What parents and friends often don't understand is that with depressions sometimes comes hypersensitivity and as such our twist of things can become irrational and fixated on a flippant remark.

In times like that, it could be helpful to take a deep breath and question their ability (directly) to take you seriously. Or as winter suggested, speak directly to a T/other responsible adult about your feelings

[A Red Panda]

Wow, my jaw-dropped. I am so, so sorry that your parents would say that to you.

You're worth love, and you deserve to be loved. I am so sorry that they are not giving that to you.

[Staple]

I remember a few years back I really wanted to kill myself, and my parents said something like "how would your sister feel". My internal reaction was something to the effect of "she has a bunch of friends and a boyfriend...who the flip do I have?". What baffled me the most was that they didn't see how illogical that was. In my mind, it was evidence that they clearly didn't understand me, and in turn, I felt even lonelier.

I'm sure they love me, as yours probably do too, but they don't UNDERSTAND me. I've come to just accept this. Now I just try to find people who do understand me, which is unfortunately very difficult to do in person.

[herethennow]

Oh my god... I'm so sorry your parents has said that to you. It sounds like they're trying to guilt-trip you.. but instead they're aggravating it.

I hope you're doing fine...