[reesecups]

I've been recovering from yet another major depressive episode. I've been going to group therapy in a php program twice a week and to a private therp on Thursdays. Thought my depression was at bay and that I was coping better than I had in years. Then one extremely small trigger started to depress me Wednesday night and here it is Saturday morning and I'm feeling worse.

Part of the depression was assuming I had progressed farther than maybe I actually had after I figured that I was still unable to be comfortable around a lot of people. Also a personal crisis with a friend last week, was relieved when we decided to have limited contact. I've been staying active like I had been trained to do, until Wednesday and Thursday, which I couldn't find the motivation to do anything.

I'm trying to get enough motivation to actually pay my bills today. Thought about a movie afterward to try to 'take care' of myself. But it all seems like a struggle right now. Just very frustrating. Nothing is going wrong now, everything is fine, so I don't know why I'm feeling like this. Not sure by taking the steps I've been trained to do will help. But I guess I'll try to do something.

Thanks for letting me speak.

[gayleggg]

Sorry about the trigger. Just when you were feeling better. I understand all to well how that works and how bad it sucks, but sounds like you are trying to do all the right things. Keep fighting. You have learned some good techniques for taking care of yourself. Keep up the good work. Hope you feel better soon/

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Originally Posted by gayleggg

Sorry about the trigger. Just when you were feeling better. I understand all to well how that works and how bad it sucks, but sounds like you are trying to do all the right things. Keep fighting. You have learned some good techniques for taking care of yourself. Keep up the good work. Hope you feel better soon/

Thank you. I am trying. I know there is a depression support group that is free and meets on Saturday. Never went there before, but thinking if I can force myself to get out, I might try it. But I'm very insecure and quiet around people I don't know so it might not even be productive for me and possibly make it worse because I'd be admitting another failure on my part.

Originally Posted by reesecups

Thank you. I am trying. I know there is a depression support group that is free and meets on Saturday. Never went there before, but thinking if I can force myself to get out, I might try it. But I'm very insecure and quiet around people I don't know so it might not even be productive for me and possibly make it worse because I'd be admitting another failure on my part.

Hi. I'm sorry you are not doing as well as you would like to. And, in my opinion, even considering going out is positive.
I have never been to a group so I should not really say anything, but I'm sure that you could just sit and listen if you choose to. If you have missed this evening and consider going again, please report back. I would love to know how it went.

[reesecups]

Originally Posted by sophiesmom

Hi. I'm sorry you are not doing as well as you would like to. And, in my opinion, even considering going out is positive.
I have never been to a group so I should not really say anything, but I'm sure that you could just sit and listen if you choose to. If you have missed this evening and consider going again, please report back. I would love to know how it went.

I'm actually in group therapy for two days a week at 5 -hour days. It took me over a month to even get comfortable. I ended up not going. I finally finished my bills today, did most of my laundry and promptly fell asleep for about 4 hours. I think I might put it on my calendar for next week. Will let everyone know what happens. Thanks for everyone's support.