Slow Learner & Depressed

As far back as I could remember I have always been a really slow learner. Even as a kid I was usually one step behind my class. This problem still affects me today. I'm just really sick and tired of letting people down by how my lack of my mental IQ is. I've been through so many black days where I have quit jobs in the past because of my ability to comprehend with everyone else. I feel like a quitter and a failure. Overall I just got tired of people yelling and screaming at me, saying horrible things such as "Oh him... yeah he's the special one" or my nick name would be called "Resource." At first I was neutral about it but after years of hearing this, it gets really old. Eventually it gets to the point where I have no desire to do anything in life. I don't need affection or any kind of sympathy because I'm way beyond that. I just want to know if any one else suffers from the same thing? Or am I the only one that has this problem. Should I go see a doctor and have my brain looked at? honestly I do not know what to do anymore.

Hello & Welcome, Jon Dough.
Speed is one aspect of learning, but how well do you learn?
This is something else. It's right to get tired of people treating you poorly. People have demeaned you for so long that I wouldn't be surprised if you have involuntarily absorbed some of their attitudes toward yourself. That can turn into depression and its associated lack of motivation.
Not specifically for your brain, but getting a full medical check is a good idea. Along with general health issues you can tell the doctor about your 'slow' history and your current struggles with feelings and demotivation. The doctor may be able to refer you to others who can help.

Again, welcome, and please keep posting.

Welcome to PC - Rohag gave good advice

Agree with Rohag. A medical would be advisable.Your self asteem has taken a battering over the years. I am so sorry that people are so ignorant. You seem very articulate in your post, maybe you are listening to these comments for too long and they are rubbing off on you. You have nothing to be ashamed off. Be proud of who you are. Stand tall. Best wishes to you and welcome to PC.

As Pierro said, you're very articulate in your post. That's definitely not a sign of low IQ. People learn in different ways at different rates. My brother got straight A's in high school. His best friend knew the material as well as he did but never got higher than a C. He just didn't learn the material well enough in time for the test. After high school he went to college and started his own business and is quite successful at it. How you did in school doesn't necessarily translate into how you do in life.

Depression can really get in the way of thinking clearly and quickly. Big time.

As for me, it takes me awhile to learn things. I don't pick up on things quickly. I have to take the time to really study something to understand it. It always drives me nuts when other people (like my brother) can pick up on things quickly and expand upon and ask intelligent question. Meanwhile I'm trying to figure out what the speaker said 5 sentences ago.

Well, I can tell you this.....I have always been extremely nervous when starting a new job. I think I got this from my mother who would always get nerved up when starting a different job- even if it was with the same company.

I have blond highlights and used to take great offense to the dumb blond jokes. My best friends husband once said to me "What, did you dye your hair to prove to people how stupid you are?"

Even today I sometimes feel it is ok for others to make mistakes but for me to make a mistake would mean I'm stupid. And I know this is the wrong way to think.

Everybody deserves to learn at their own pace.
I know I do much better when I can calm myself down and give myself a chance.

I've been wanting to learn country line dancing and wonder "What if it's too hard?" But I keep reading that we only regret the things we haven't tried. Not trying is not living.

I wish you well. Give yourself a break.