[omofca]

I have severe anxiety (GAD and generalized social phobia), major depression, ADHD-PI and probably dysthymia. I can dream of aspirations (being a veteran and scientist or engineer), yet I can't do the simplest of things to achieve them. I don't have the motivation to do school work. I don't know how to apply for a job and I don't have the motivation to find out how. I have zero confidence. I feel like a zombie. Like I'm dead, dreaming, unreal or something. My anxiety makes me feel crazy. I don't know how I will be able to feel well. I haven't even gotten my diploma yet and I was supposed to graduate last year. I was thinking about joining the military but I need a diploma for that so I can't even do that... I'm afraid I'll end up being a homeless bum. I don't have parents and I can't live with my grandma forever. I don't want to live here much longer. I should be grateful she took me in instead of me going into foster homes, but I feel miserable. I want to be better but I won't and I feel like spiraling until I die. I've been on Remeron for two months. I started taking 30mg every night about three weeks ago, but I still feel depressed and anxious. Actually I probably feel worse. I feel empty nothingness. It's unbearable.

[Rohag]

Hello, Omofca. Amounting to something often involves mastering task after task without necessarily focusing on how you will amount to anything. Getting the diploma is important, but working on sorting out the meds may be a prerequisite.

I often wonder how much of my own lethargy is due to the underlying depression/anxiety problems versus the meds employed to address those problems. Depression can undermine motivation, so can depression meds.

You need to discuss this with your prescribing doctor (an eight-weeks' trial on a drug is fairly standard). Also, do you have access to an academic or vocational counselor who has experience dealing with people suffering from MH problems?

[Idiot17]

In similar position. Dont see myself getting anywhere being that i still dont have my diploma(everyone would be shocked to know that). Rohag has some good advice there. Sorry not much help.

[Idealsummerluvv]

I hope you're able to talk to your doctor and maybe a vocational counselor like
Rohag suggested.

One step at a time.

[TheTrade]

doesn't sound like you're going through serious clinical depression...have you tried doing heavy exercise everyday, such as going to the gym and lifting weights, or some sort of strenuous aerobic exercise such as running?

Just a note: if you go to a psychiatrist, he most likely won't talk about exercise as an effective mood booster.