[AfterTheHunter]

Hi all. Something weird happened this week. I feel that, out of nowhere, I snapped out of my depression, one where I was not having feelings, or any desire to do anything or get out of bed.

Since I've been in this state for over a year now, I haven't done much with my life. I've been unemployed and could hardly find energy to look for a job, which also been taking a toll on my self esteem lately.

So I feel like this week I woke up from deep sleep, but my life didn't follow. My few friends got used to not inviting me for any event (as I would always refuse to come making up some excuse), and I also don't have a significant other. I feel so terribly alone in this weird lack of life I created myself.

The reason I believe I snapped out of it is because for the first time since last year I am feeling bad to spend a whole weekend by myself. I wish I had someone or friends to spend fun time with. I haven't felt it for over a year. So all in all I am grateful my mood changed and I want to be back to life.

Have any of you been in this situation? I know I should slowly start contacting people or try making new friends, but for now... it's a really weird feeling. How can I cope with this mess and emptiness I did with my life? Would appreciate any ideas to make me feel a little better and move on. Thanks!

[gnat]

I have a friend who goes through this periodically. She ignores my calls and emails so I quit trying. Months will pass. She then calls me and we schedule a time to get together and at that time she usually tells me she was in a depressed state and needed to be alone. I guess I get it so it's easy for me to understand. The first few times it was a bit weird, I feared she was brushing me off. Now I wait for the cycle to come full circle and I'm here for her when she's ready, unless I'm in a funk and not ready.

[AfterTheHunter]

You're a good friend, gnat. I think the people who stayed in my life so far are similar to you. They know I have my ups and downs and they take it as is although I'm sure they're not that happy about it and see me as "selfish" or so.

[AfterTheHunter]

I wonder if people feel kind of lost right after leaving a depressive phase. And what do they do about it.