[Catsarecool]

Hey, bad day just want to have a chat to someone, anyone really.

[gayleggg]

Sorry, you are having a bad day. Need to talk about anything in particular?

[the abyss]

know that some one cares.

[MusicLover79]

message me if you want to talk

[Catsarecool]

Thankx. Nothing to talk about in particular was just having a really, really bad day.

Feel free to contact me ANYTIME you want (or need)

I am here as well, and always looking for someone to talk to. I hate feeling depressed and alone, it's the worst. You may also contact me if you wish.

[sbonnie40]

Everyday I struggle to turn things around; to be optimistic; to concentrate- to focus. To say to myself, that no matter what happens today, I will not let it bother me. Everyday I try to shrug off how disappointed I am in myself-- and not feel as though people are always going to smash me down because they think I am strong-- they think I am this immovable force--- and not only do they want to know what makes me tick--- they want to break me. I know far better than to EVER tell *those* people that that is impossible--- that I *am* broken--- that someone broke me a very long time ago and that NO ONE could ever do that damage again. I have removed the bad people in my life. I struggle everyday to move forward. I am the epitome of a reliable, conscientious worker, and a prudent, sober individual. I started running everyday six months ago-- some days only 30 mins-- some days up to an hour. AND YET today--- out of nowhere--- my boss says to me (as we were talking about potential new hires and he made a comment about my stubborn persistence for professionalism and then went on to say this): "look at you-- look! you're obviously depressed. It's a really good thing you don't drink-- being depressed as you are and all--- you'd either be a stubborn drunk-- or worse yet a sloppy drunk-- and goodness knows we do not need sloppy around here."

(This REALLY stung because my boss KNOWS that I do not have ANY contact with my family because of their alcoholism. BTW-- I don't drink by CHOICE--- because I never felt like other "teenagers" or college kids that it was COOL-- or that I was getting away with something. My mother used to try and give me beers in middle school when I would come home in tears from being picked on--- she'd first yell at me for being such a wuss-- and then throw a can of beer at me and tell me to drink it because it would make me feel better. I'm 31 now-- AND I STILL don't like the taste of alcohol! AND!! I AM the ONLY person I can rely on-- FOR ANYTHING! I would never, ever, put myself in a situation where someone might POSSIBLY have to take care of me--- because my parents taught me to know better than that!!

I don't know how to stop this unprovoked treatment from people. THEY DO NOT KNOW what I have been through! I AM that statistic that has overcome parental abuse and made better for myself without manipulating with sympathy or sorrow. I never EVER thought ONCE to drown my childhood with drugs or alcohol. I ACCEPT the fact that what happened to me as a child has resulted in me not being able to HAVE children myself. I do NOT think that the world owes me anything--- but I do not know how to stop people from being SO rude and miserable to me.