[Yogurtz]

Lately I have been feeling like such a loser, and I don't know how to cope with these negative feelings.

I look at where I am in life – finished vocational training, currently unemployed looking for work, university dropout, etc. – I can't help but feel this strong sense of disappointment. I don't feel like I have accomplished anything worthwhile, and it kind of makes me think, “What use am I?”

What I would love to be able to do is wake up in the morning and feel good about what I have accomplished in life. Unfortunately, all I see are a long list of disappointments, and what I have accomplished doesn't seem like much to me, although my therapist would disagree on that. She thinks it is incredible that I completed the schooling to obtain my commercial driver's license, but that still seems small, and it hurts that I failed twice to obtain it. (Of the entire school, two students failed, including me, and I failed twice.) I will never forget that horrible feeling.

I will admit I am likely feeling so low about myself because I compare myself to my idol-enemy (i.e., someone I admire because of what they've done but hate because I wish I was them) has been in the news a lot.

The most celebrated athletic even this year is taking place right now. All the major news companies and newspapers – The Globe and Mail, the New York Times, Reuters, BBC, NDTV, Economic Times, and more – are reporting on it.

The World Chess Championships are on in Chennai, India, with the “Norwegian sensation” Magnus Carlsen (22), the world's No. 1 ranked chess player, taking on Viswanathan Anand (43) of India, the current and 6-time World Chess Champion. The total cash prize for the winner is $2.24 million.

Magnus Carlsen is my idol-enemy; he's the same age has me and has accomplished a thousand times more than what I could ever dream of. He's the highest ranked chess player in history, makes more than a million dollars a year, and looks like a model too.

Couldn't I be successful and accomplished like that?

I don't know. I feel like if I am always to be average (or below average) then what use am I? Today I had an interview at a moving company for a job there, and that's not necessarily bad, but it doesn't make me feel successful. Everything I've done seems so minor and insignificant.

[the abyss]

you are not a loser.
good on you for getting your commercial licence, when i had to go for a truck HR - rigid licence i had to do the truckers knot to make loads secure, i can't even remember how many times the instructor had to show me it was embarrassing but heh i do not or have ever pretended to be a genius . so go easy on your self.
to me if some one is kind and shows kindness they are wise, and if some one is wise they are successful.
as for dropping out of uni, most of the most successful people in this world dropped out of school.
you have not found what you want to do ,that is pretty normal.
how about you stop comparing your self with others, how about you just accept who you are, and work from there.
good luck with the job , i hope you get it.
take care

You pretty much know what I would say so I won't say it
Can you at least give yourself credit for your accomplishments and the hurdles you've overcome? We should all aspire to be the best we can. To expend energy aspiring to the talents/accomplishments of someone else is pretty much a waste. Have you looked inward to see where this impossibly high standard is coming from? Do you need the accolades?
We all have to find a way to be content with our own capabilities and talents. You can't enjoy life any other way.

[H3rmit]

I feel like crap when I compare myself to my idols as well. All the mistakes I've made, or things done to me. You don't choose the hand you're dealt, just how you play it.