[Hatter08]

I'm growing to hate my own mind. I need to remain constantly distracted or else I slip into uncontrollable fits of emotion. I constantly have my headphones in or am doing some pointless task alone. If I stop for even a second and think about anything worth thinking about, my mind spirals into uncontrollable depression, hopelessness, anger and confusion. The only problem is this is taking away from my life. I know I can't spend my whole life wasting away in front of a computer or just drowning out the world with music but I honestly can't bear to face the world without it.

I just don't know what to do. I don't know how to go out there and face the world when this is all I can help to feel. I can't really accomplish anything anymore because I either need to be so distracted I don't know what's going on or I sink into these horrible fits of depression. I just can't help but notice all of the bad things. I can't help but feel complete hopelessness at life, just knowing that it doesn't amount to anything.

[VxVx]

This happens to me too. As long as I am doing something and distracted I'm ok, but if I stop for a moment the thoughts wont stop. Had a very bad day yesterday, thought I was going to start crying on the way home, just feeling frustrated and depressed, I hate it .

[Charl S]

I "zone out" from the minute I wake up to when I go to bed. I don't want to feel this sadness and emptiness so I pretend I'm ok, I pretend I don't feel.

[Hug_your_Teddybear]

As long as I'm busy I'm fine but any time I'm not going 90 miles a hour I spiral downwards

[vans1974]

Hey Hatter08- when I can't get, "my mind off my mind" I find I have to change my environment or focus on others. If that doesn't help me out of a deep despairity, then I have to adjust my med cocktail! Best of luck and hang in there!!